Waiting For Him

So Right, So Wrong

Now that the moment had finally come, the moment that both of the bothers had longed for for so long, it was as though they'd never be able to be pulled apart again. They had always been perfectly in unison, but it'd never been quite like this.  Kaoru felt as though his heart was going to beat out of his chest as he continued to mash his lips into his brother's. This was the happiest moment of his life.  He felt a hunger like he couldn't believe. He yearned for more.  More and more of his identical twin.  More of his lips.  His breath.  His entire being. 

Kaoru was as close as he could possibly be to Hikaru, but he wanted - no, he needed to be closer.  Their bodies were pressed so tightly up against one another's as they sat on the host club's couch making out as though they were never going to get the opportunity to again.  The orange haired boy felt as though both of their hearts were beating at the exact same time at the exact same pace which confirmed to him, in at least this moment, that everything he was feeling Hikaru must have been feeling too.  He just had to be.  Kaoru's fingers tangled themselves into his brother's hair. The only time their lips parted was when they were so in need of air that they were gasping.

Both of twins were completely lost in each other. All the years of pent up emotions between them were being let out in this long awaited moment. They were both completely unaware of their surroundings. Hikaru could feel both his brother's happiness and his pain of having to hide it for so long.  He now felt guilt of how his time with Haruhi must have been agony for his twin. It added fuel to his passion and need to make him feel more loved then he ever had before. In this moment, it didn't matter what the world thought of them.  Damn everyone else.  If this was so wrong then why did it feel so right?

CRASH!

Both boys separated their lips, heads whipping in the direction of the door where the noise has erupted from. A mug lay in pieces on the floor and in the door way stood Haruhi. Both twins were panting, staring at her in shock as she stared back in disbelief. Both of their lips were bright red from the friction.

A moment too long went by of staring between the twins and Haruhi before Hikaru finally shuffled out of his brother's grip and jolted to his feet. He cleared his throat, fear of  the situation suddenly washing over him. "H-Haruhi!" An awkward laugh escaped his lips. The discomfort was seeping off of him even though he tried to put on his most charming and devilish smile. "I see you've stumbled across tomorrow's grand finale." He forced another laugh, feeling as though he was crushing his own heart with a lie. Only moments ago, he was damning the world's view of him and now he was groveling to it as he tried to protect their image.  He was such a hypocrite.  "I think the girls are going to eat this act up."

Kaoru's eyes left Haruhi to look over at his brother who was spewing a new lie in Haruhi's direction. Suddenly he felt like somebody was grabbing his heart tightly and squeezing it, unwilling to let go. B-But... But I thought we didn't have to hide anymore - The thought stuttered in his mind. I thought we could be... us. He felt tears well up in his eyes.  It felt as though Hikaru was betraying him by betraying what he'd said only moment ago.

Hikaru heard what sounded like a whimper out of his twin causing his eyes to leave Haruhi who looked like she was trying to decide if she believed him or not. Though it stung to see his brother clearly distraught by his covering up of their kissing, he felt a sense of worry he wasn't taking into consideration when they'd started this.  It was a worry that had kept him from starting anything romantic between them many times before.  He wished Kaoru could understand. Haruhi would surely shun them. So would their friends. Their family. Strangers. Everyone. They couldn't be together, or at least, not in everyone else's vision. He was wrong not to have resisted the impulse today.  What was he thinking?