Forever and Always

Chapter 1

Nialls POV
"Thank you Cali for coming to our show tonight everyone have a safe ride home we love you." Liam yelled to the thousands of girls in the arena. Everyone cheered as we ran off the stage. "Okay boys let's go get on the bus let's get out of here." Paul said as he handed us towels. We all climbed on the bus and Paul trailed behind us.

"Alright let's head to the hotel." He told the driver. "Baby you alright?" Harry asked. "M'fine just tired." I answered with a fake smile. I walked back to the bathroom and felt all my emotions come up. It's hard for me to go out there and face all the fans when 90% of them hate me. All night I seen signs saying.

One Direction would be better without Niall.

Niall sucks.

Niall your ugly go away.

1D without the Irish one.

    The signs gets worse and worse the more I think of them. There are fans who care about me. But there aren't many and it hurts. All of this is really taking a tull on my mental health. Last year I started cutting to release some of my stress, but Harry caught me in the action one night and made me promise to stop. I have already broke that promise. It helps me in ways I can't explain. That's why I hide away in the bathroom.

    I took out one of my razors and started. One for being ugly, one for being stupid, and one for not being good enough. I heard a knock on the door and quickly put my stuff away. "Yeah?" I yelled. "Niall hurry up I have to piss." I heard Louis on the other side. I quickly wiped my eyes and pulled my sleeve down than opened the door.

    "Ni are you okay?" He asked me. Damn it I'm still crying. "Yeah M'fine." I lied. Louis softly grabbed my wrist to try and comfort me but instead it hurt. I had my new cuts there and he just grabbed them I let out a squeal and pulled away. "Niall what's wrong?" Louis panicked. "I said I'm fine." I said. "Louis quickly grabbed my arm and rolled up my sleeve.

    "Oh my god Ni." He said. "Don't tell Harry." I choked out. "Niall I'm sorry but I have to. Harry come here." He yelled. "Lou please." I said. "What's going on?" Harry asked than Louis pointed to my wrist. "Baby you promised you would stop." He said. "I c-can't I'm s-sorry." I let out. "Come here." Harry pulled me into a tight hug as I cried into his chest.

    "Why do you think this is the solution just talk to me." Harry said. I could see that he was crying as well. "Haz I-I c-can't." I whispered. I have never told the boys why I do this they don't know about the hate I get. I don't want to pile my problems onto their life. "Ni look at me." Harry cupped my cheeks and wiped my tears.

    "You know I love you right?" He asked. "Course I l-love you t-to." I said. Harry gave me a peck on the lips and led me to the front of the bus. Both Zayn and Liam looked up at me in fear and Harry shook his head. Harry wrapped his arms around me and kissed the top of my head. "Go to sleep Ni I'll wake you up when we get to the hotel." He said. I snuggled onto his chest and fell asleep. Even though I can't get all the signs out of my head. Harry always tries his best to make me feel wanted.

Harry's POV
    I hate seeing Niall like this I think I can speak for all the boys when I say we miss the old happy go lucky jolly Niall. The Niall I fell in love with. "Is he okay?" Zayn asked. "Louis found him cutting in the bathroom." I said. "I thought he stopped?" Liam asked. "He promised me he would but I guess he never did." I said.

   I looked down at Niall his cheeks where red and he clenched onto me like there was no tomorrow. "Lou are you alright your crying?" Liam asked. "I just walked in on my little brother hurting himself no I'm not alright." He said. "I'm worried about him guys what if he end up really hurting himself and than." Zayn quickly got up and hugged Louis. "Don't think about that non of us can let that happen." He said.