In the early days, when Swami used to go to America, unable to bear the separation, the brahmacharis and brahmacharinis who were there at that time used to sob like anything. The eyes used to turn red like the kovai fruit. I had come to ashram at that time. I saw this. At that time Swami came to that spot and said, ‘You don’t need to think that all these people are crying and you also cry Amma. How much you need to cry in life, that much you have cried. Hereafter you should not cry for anything.’ From then till now, tears have never come from my eyes for anything.
Why He told, ‘You have cried as much as you need to cry’ is because, when He went away separate from me, I could not bear the grief and cried a lot continuously. Even though I blessed and sent Him to join Ramakrishan Mutt, I was crying inside me continuously. That is what He meant when He said that. If an incarnation utters a word, we will not be able to fully understand its meaning at that time. Only in course of time we will be able to understand it.
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When God is My Son
NonfiksiMa Nithya Lokanayakananda Swami is the biological mother of The Supreme Pontiff of Hinduism (SPH) who devotees of SPH lovingly call "SwamiAmma". In these memoirs, SwamiAmma recalls her life with The Avatar from the time He was born, to when He left...
