Young N' Dumb

MOVING ON

CHAPTER THIRTEEN
-Journey
I've been in bed for the past week. I just can't pull myself to get up, I'm not excited about life anymore. Being in a relationship with someone for four years and being hurt is the worst feeling someone can endure. My heart hurts and it feels so heavy. My breathing is shortened and I just can't manage to catch my breath from all the crying I've been doing. I don't understand how Quentin could put me through all of this. I guess our relationship never meant shit to him. I'm pregnant with his baby and he treats me like a whore off the street. Words can't describe how I feel right now but I know one thing for sure I never wanna be in love again if it hurts this bad. I'll be lonely for the rest of my life. On top of all of this bullshit, I've been having weird feelings in my stomach off and on since me and Q had that big argument. I'm scared as hell because he said he hope my baby dies and I haven't been feeling well.

-Quentin
I fucking hate that dumb ass bitch, I wish I never stuck my dick in her hoe ass. She probably who I got chlamydia from. All she was ever good for was to get this nut off me anyways. On to bigger and better things. I been fucking with Lauren hard for a minute now. I'm glad she told me about journey that's why I fuck with her so hard. Lately, she been saying she don't feel good. I honestly think she pregnant but she don't think so. I hope she not, I can't deal with that. Me and her going to the doctor today to find out. I mean if she is I'll just have to man up and deal with the responsibilities.

-Journey
My mother really doesn't like seeing me like this and I don't like it myself personally but everything happens for a reason right? Maybe it was never meant for me and quentin to be together. I know God wouldn't put this innocent child in this world without parents to give he/she the best guidance possible. All of those are things that I just don't want to believe. Honestly, I'm tired of mopping around looking sad all day while he's out enjoying himself and has someone now. It came by no surprise that quentin and Lauren are an item now. I knew it was in her little plan all along after I heard rumors about her liking him. Oh well. It's time for me to actually enjoy the little time I have left in high school and not be so tied up into one thing. I got so tired of crying, I instantly shot up after a tear rolled down my face and shot vontae a text.
ME: What's up?
He text back instantly.
CUTIE: Missin U, where U been at?
ME: Sick! & when did you start missing me boy?
CUTIE: Every since I seen your face. U got plans 2night?
ME: Well I would've never known, & no I'm free. What's up?
CUTIE: I wanna take U out
ME: What time?
CUTIE: 7:30 & bring that sexy ass smile with U
He really does know how to make me blush. Little sweet things like that are what make me like him so much. Quentin never took me out randomly, it always had to be a special occasion. I think I got overly excited texting vontae because he made me turn into a water faucet by just thinking about him. Having sex is the furthest thing from my mind but I'm always prepared so I made a mental note to get a Brazilian wax later today. I rolled out of bed and went downstairs to smell the scent of bacon, French toast, waffles, pancakes, eggs, sausage, grits, fried fish, smothered shrimp, fresh fruit, orange juice, and milk. My mother really knows how to cook and I wonder why she cooked all of this food. "Goodmorning baby, I made you breakfast", my mother said with a huge smile on her face. "All of this for me?", I said. "Yes, I just hate seeing my baby upset and I know there's no better thing to make you happy than food so here you go", she said handing me a plate with everything on it. "I love you so much mom and I really appreciate everything you do for me", I said hugging her. "I love you more baby", she said. "Not a chance", I said before turning to enter the living room. I sat done and enjoyed my meal with the company of my beautiful mother. She still doesn't know about the pregnancy and I don't know how to tell her. It'll come to me though. For the rest of the day my mother treated the both of us to a day of shopping and pampering. By the help of her and vontae I can honestly say I haven't been thinking about Quentin lately. It feels great to have a huge weight lifted off my chest and to be able to smile. I grabbed me a really nice quarter length sleeve blouse dress that stopped a little above my knees and light brown leather boots that stopped right under my knees. I had my whole attire prepared for tonight.