What The Alpha Says...Goes (boyxboy) Bk 1

Chapter 23: I feel nothing...

 Chapter 23

~Carson’s POV~

When I felt the sensation of being lifted my eyes fluttered open to see a shadow looming above me. I groaned from the pain that had already spread throughout my entire body.

“Shhh it’s okay Alpha, you’ll be alright.”

The voice sounded vaguely familiar and I tried to lift my head to see the face that it belonged to but I was too weak to even muster that much effort.

 My eyes drifted shut once more despite my fighting to keep them open.

“That’s right Carson, sleep now, you’ll be just fine.” The voice whispered against my ear and I drifted.

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~Laken’s POV~

“Three weeks. It’s been three weeks Laken, it’s time you stop this.”

I didn’t budge at the sound of his voice; instead I sat at the window staring unseeingly into the snow covered yard.

He slammed down a plate in front of me; “Eat” he commanded and I pushed the pate away, turning my attention once more to the window.

I heard him sigh in frustration but I made no effort to acknowledge him.

Yeah it had been three weeks. Three weeks since the incident and I’d heard no word about my pack or Carson. Lucas had kept us practically isolated from everyone we knew and that didn’t bother me in the least. Ever since watching my mate get gunned down, I’d pretty much lost interest in everything.

Carson’s dead.

The thought no longer made me cry. The two weeks after the shooting I’d pretty much cried away all my tears. I had nothing left in me to let out and so I spent my days in this very spot looking out into the yard, waiting…for what I had no clue.

“Listen to me Laken! You need to snap out of it!” Lucas practically shouted at me. He had my face in his hands so I had no choice but to look at him, my eyes bored.

“Don’t let his death be in vain, he died to save you, the least you can do is try to live!” he said harshly and I flinched at that and jerked my face from his hands.

“Just leave me alone.” I whimpered pushing the plate further way from me and resting my head on the table.

I listened as he pulled up a chair beside me and sat down with a sigh.

“I miss him.” I whispered not really caring if he heard or not. It was just something I was feeling.

He dragged his hand through my long curls. I hadn’t cut my hair in weeks; I just didn’t have the drive.

“I know.” He said after awhile and my mouth trembled as I felt my eyes water.

I took a deep breath and let it out slowly before raising my head to look at him. He dropped his hand from my hair but continued to look on at me with concern.

“What you’re feeling is understandable but you have to try to fight it, after awhile it will get better I promise.” He said with a small smile.

“Have you ever lost someone you love?” I asked softly.

“”Yes and I’d rather not lose you too.” He said brushing the stray lock of hair from my face.

I glanced back out the window; “He’s not coming back Laken.”