secrets | louis partridge x fem oc

Strangers

5:37 pm

We were only a few centimeters away. His lips were literally touching mine, but just barely. Our eyes were locked. His hand was on my face.

I want to kiss him. I was to close my eyes and feel his soft lips on mine, as his hand wraps around my waist and mine goes around his back. I want to feel his smile on my lips and his fluffy hair on my forehead.

"Louis..." I whisper, not moving. He looks down and I feel his hand very slowly slide off my face.

"I- I'm sorry I-"

I watched as he carefully pulled away and didn't look at me. He just looked at the floor, his face bright red. I could just tell he was embarrassed. Like... really embarrassed.

I also leaned back a bit and we just sat side by side, not speaking. Louis face was covered by his hands.

"I'm so sorry..." he mumbled into his hands. I awkwardly looked at the floor, knowing how badly I wanted to kiss him back.

"No Louis it's- I'm just afraid about my fa-"

"It's fine." He said, dropping his hands and seeming a little frustrated. I leaned back a bit, a little surprised at his anger.

"Louis I'm sorry I-"

"No Avianna this isn't your fault." He raised his voice a bit, but still doesn't stare me in the eyes. I bite my tongue to try and keep my cool.

"Okay well it sounds like your angry that I want kiss you back!"

"I'm not!!" His voice was at a yell now and he rolled his eyes, but quickly closed them after. I started to stand up.

"Then why are you yelling!" I say, not realizing that I was yelling too now. He stood up too and looked at me for a second but looked back down quickly.

"Okay well now you are part of the reason I'm mad!!!"

"Why are you mad Louis!?"

"BECAUSE!!"

I immediately shut up and took a few steps away. His eyes grew with regret for a moment.

"Nevermind." He said, looking down and heading to the piano bench where he grabbed his backpack.

"Louis wait," I say, walking over. He heard my footsteps and turns around, holding out a hand to stop me.

"Just- stop." He looks into my eyes for a second and looks nervous for a second before throwing the bag over his shoulder and shaking his head.

"I'm mad at myself." He mumbles, walking past me and heading to the exit.

"What why?!" I call out, turning around as he leaves, "Louis it's raining!!"

He doesn't turn back. Instead I just watch as he makes it to the door and flings it open, walking outside and not caring about the freezing cold air, wind and rain.

God what's wrong with me?

All I have to do is kiss him! That's it! And for heavens sake I WANT TO!!

"Why didn't I just kiss you?" I mumble to myself, feeling my eyes slowly well up.

He said he wasn't mad at me but I don't believe that. I really don't wanna be in a fight with him but here we are. And all because I didn't kiss him back.

God I hate myself.

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Louis POV

I heard Avianna call out my name, but I didn't look back. I hate myself. I know her father would hurt her if she fell in love and I keep making it hard for her. I keep doing things without thinking. But god we were so close.

Her lips were touching mine, but only a little, and my hand was on her face. But she can't. And I'm a fucking idiot for thinking we could work as friends.

Because the more time I spend with her, the more we fall. And I think we honestly both want to.

But It's not fair to be mad at her father either.

It makes sense why he doesn't want her to fall in love. Because he doesn't want her to go through what he did.

But that doesn't mean he can hurt her. She can't control who she likes.

The only person to blame here is me. And my ignorance for falling for her.

Maybe we'd be better as strangers.

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