The Different Girl Of Two Worlds (Spock x Reader)

Chapter 13 - It's not fair

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"No, not at all". Those words made my body numb. We stare at each other for a few seconds until I feel warmth spring through my body again. Looking down i see his hand wrapped around my right wrist. He lets go leaving his index and middle finger on the top of my hand, softly trailing down on to my same fingers and stops on my nails, almost asking for permission. I try to gasp but it get caught in my throat as my heart rate goes out of control. He keeps going until he reaches his destination, the tips, forming a- 'Vulcan kiss'.

I look at him wide eyed, feeling sparks bolt through my body as I move my other hand onto him chest seeing he's gotten a lot closer. He had an expression that I've never seen on a Vulcan but have seen on humans. Love.

He leans down looking at my lips to my eyes as I follow his actions I slide my hands into his hair as he places his hands on my hips, but just before our lips meet I move our heads to the side resting on cheeks together.

"Spock I-I can't do this, this isn't fair on-" Spock's door opens coursing me to stop talking and separate from each other quickly. "Y/n, Spock you in here?" a voice calls out. 'Uhura' , "yep" I call out, she turns the Corning coming into our view joining us in Spock's bedroom. "What are you guys doing in here?" She says, "Y/n didn't feel comfortable out in the halls since it seems she is the only Vulcan that shows emotions" Spock spoke, "and I was looking at all the amazing Vulcan artifacts that where saved, I'm jealous" I say walking up to her.

"That necklace looks Vulcan too, at least you were able to save something" Uhura says as we walk out of his room. "Yer my Grandmother gave it to my mother just before she was teleported onto a rescue craft", "oh really? Did she give it to you as a gift?" I give an empty chuckle. "No she died on Vulcan along with my other Vulcan family besides my Mother, father and brother, my mother gave it to me as a congratulations gift for joining my dream crew ship", "oh I'm sorry to hear about your family" "it's fine, Vulcans are supposed to not feel sad when losing a loved one, we understand life and death and the meaning of it" an empty chuckle escapes my lips again. "May I have a look at it?" Spock says from behind us just before we go to leave.

I turn to Spock showing it to him, tensing up scared Uhura might know somethings up. "This is from the Vulcan high council, it's the rarest Vulcan jewel in the world I'm amazed that you were able to attain it and that I didn't notice until now" he says with the stone in his hand that was still around my neck. I feel heat rise in my cheeks from how close we are to each other again, he gently lets go of the jewel and looks me in the eyes for a second, then walks to Uhura back in his emotionless routine. "Lieutenant, why are you here and not at your post?", shock spread on Uhura's face. "Since when have you called me lieutenant? You only ever call me that on the bridge and that's only sometimes", Uhura spoke with concerne. "You didn't answer my question" Spock said almost coldly, uhura looked at me and I shrugged, she turned back to him. "Jim told me to go for a walk and look for you guys to see how you were going with the tour", there was almost a hint of sadness as she spoke. "Well we still haven't reached the first destination yet due to her feeling anxious, but we will continue so you may go back to your post and wait for further orders". Uhura nods and walks about without another word, i didn't even get to see her face as she leaves but i can imagine it was sadness.

Spock turns to me, "shell we continue?" he asks politely, I nod as i begin to follow him around again.

"Spock, you acted coldly to Uhura, that wasn't really nice, and she is your girlfriend after all". He stopped and half turned to me, "she won't be for long", my eyes widened as a gasp escaped my mouth.

I scrunch my face feeling my anger rising, my body begins to move on its own as the anger takes control, i almost ran up to him pushing him against the wall as my hands are firmly gripped around his collar, confusion was spasted on his face, it was the complete opposite then the fearful expression i expected to see when i always do this to people.

"HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT?!?! YOU CAN'T JUST LEAVE HER ONCE YOU'VE FOUND SOMEONE ELSE!!!" I look down, trying to hold back tears, 'shit, I'm crying from how angry i am but women shouldn't be treated like this. The amount of break ups i've had to help Daylene through because of guys using her as a toy'. "W-we aren't a play thing that you can get bored of and move on, we just met a few weeks ago" i hold back my tears releasing my hands from his collar dropping them along with my head, "you just can't do that to her, she doesn't deserve that to happen to her". A firm but soft grip was resting on my shoulders making my barrier from my tears falling finally had broken from his sudden action. "Please don't cry Y/n, I don't think of women the way you are thinking. I respect them from the impressive actions and changes they have achieved. So I won't break up with her, until you think we are the one, but you know we wont know if we are truly each other's soulmates until we do the Vulcan ceremony".

My  eyes widen, my breath catches in my throat, "I know, just let's be friends for now and if i feel our bond growing more then fine", there was silence for a moment. Realising the halls had been empty the whole time of our argument i sigh in relief, 'if someone saw this and reported this im a dead man, well i'm still not safe from being reported if spock doesn't speak of it then i good'.

Spock leans down placing a kiss on my head, i chill goes down my spin, not from the shock but from the bond growing, and Spock knew what he was doing. 'What just happened, no no no that chill was from a cold breath, it is, it was' i try persuading myself.

"I will not speak of what happened a few moments ago, but i can't guarantee knowone heard your outburst" he whispers. "Thank you Spock" I whisper back. I step back letting spock out from the corner I pushed into, my head still down, too ashamed to look at him.

He begins walking again as I stay in my place, he stops turning around to me a few meters away from me, "are coming?" I hear him say, I look up at him for a second then run up to his side as if once again nothing had happened between us.

Seeing him acting like nothing happened gave me relief but also made my heart ache.