Behind the smile...bvb fan fiction

The bvb part

'You're not alone'- Carolyn, but I am alone...

I was sat in my garden listening to it, relating to it and then letting icy cool tears trickle down my pale ghostly face. There was then a slow cautious yet graceful knock at the door "Hello?" I heard someone say from the front lawn, I stood rooted to the spot.

"Just go.." I protested speaking louder, I then heard the person shut their car door and then the gravel gritted against the tyres as they left. I had decided that a bit of fresh air and retail 'thereapy' couldn't do any harm so I headed to the nearest shopping centre but before I even left the village I knew that there was something I had to do. I ordered the cab to pull up outside the very well known tattoo palour that a lot of famous people went to regularlly. I jumped out of the car and took in the beauty of the decor and the music flooded into my ears relaxing me instantly and feel at home. "Hey." I smiled sweetly.

"Want some ink then?" The fully tatooed and pierced woman from behind the desk asked standing up to greet me.

"If possible please?" I asked squinting "But theres a problem..." I said huffing.

"Gone on then." She laughed rumaging around through drawers .etc.

"Im only 16" I said looking her right in the eye as it watered so she would feel sorry for me abit more."My mums dead so she can't really give me the consent, she would if she was alive though." I said looking away and crying- for real this time.

"Oh gosh I hope your okay, I guess I won't tell if you don't." She said walking over to hug me.

"D-don't self pitty me I just want to TRY and let it fall to the back of my mind even if it's just for a couple of minutes." I said screwing my lips up to one side, she removed her arms from my back and sat down at her desk chair getting out her pack of artist pens and pencils .etc.

"so doll what dya want doing?" She asked with more of a twang, I looked up thinking about it.

"I want a small cross with wings and thorns at the bottom of my neck with a quote from the lyrics to black veil brides song saviour 'When you are feeling alone, a saviour for all that you do, so you live freely without their harm' if thats alright?" I said squinting.

"No problem, do you wanna wait or do you wanna come back later?" She asked starting to sketch carefully.

"Erm I guess I'll stay then." I said taking a seat on the red leather sofa in the corner of the studio with other tattooist fumbling round and about near me, I watched her work away at the drawing for awhile "I'm just going to having a fag." I said reaching into my pocket for a lighter and exiting with my eyes facing down to the cold black floor "SHIT." I shouted as I'd just bumped into someone I looked up and froze rooted to the spot, letting my eyes widden 'oh god shit shit shit' I tried to force something out of my pathetic gob but I was lost for words.

"Hey there." Jake pitts smiled down at me. He stood there promanatly with a long black coat, black boots, a black top and jeans, his scent was strong and very charming, he was different to how I pictured him though!

"Er....s...o-rry." I stuttered 'FU you idiotic fool!' I told myself under my breath.

"don't sweat it, i'm fine and your fine." He said with his manly, strong voice I couldn't help but nod my head and smile back sweetly "Anyway are you getting ink." He asked appearing interested I had to reply.

"Err...yeah?" I said sounding like I'd just asked him a question.

"What are you getting then?" he asked as I forgot about my fag and taking a seat next to him for a moment I was slow to reply but eventually did.

"A cross with angel wings and thorns with the lyrics to saviour, not all of them though." I laughed then sat with a smug smile for a second or two.

"It sounds good, any purpose!?" Jake said chuckling slightly my face turned pale and I sighed.

"My mum died, today actually so I thought getting a tattoo in her memory on the day could help me mourn, i may be wrong though..." I sighed heavily again a turned away slightly.

"Well my condolences then, it will look amazing i'm sure, I come here anytime I want ink and they do an amazing job I must say!" He said swiftly changing the subject to avoid emotion which personally I think was a decent move.

"I don't want to be all fangirly but will you sign some stuff for me?" I asked knowing he would say yes but asking anyway to make sure.

"Why not, got a pen?" He said seeming rather enthusiastic and willing. I felt around in my pocket for a short while until revealing a permanant marker, he smiled at the sight and I began to grab a few things from my bag, including an album of theirs and a few pieces of merch.

"Here, if you don't mind that is?" I again asked knowing the answer.

"It's fine, just relax!" He demanded chuckling as he noticed I was biting my lip and twiddling my thumbs nervously. "I know! Whilst your waiting come out back for a second I want to get you something." He said beckening me to the door leading to a small private parking lot.

"Okay then." I smiled and followed him to a black car in the center of the lot which he quickly unlocked and then oppened the boot which was full of posters and bvb merchandise "Wow!" I said in awe as I could picture all of this in my room back at home.

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"I know it's good isn't it, here take a couple of bits and bobs, it's the least I could do." As soon as he said it my face litterally lit up, I causiously picked up some posters, wrist bands and T-shirts becasue I thought if he was offering I might aswell.

"It's all signed and free of charge." He raised his eyebrow smiling "Well you better get back off to your tattoo, do you mind if I take a look I was getting a sleve drawn up anyway." He said shrugging his shoulders and walking to the door.

"Okay." I smiled, he laughed and we proceeded "Oh- and Jake, thank you so much, I never thought I'd see the day that I would meet THE Jake Pitts!" I said in astonishment.

"Hows about I throw in V.I.P tickets?" He said with a reasoning face.

"Oh, thats okay I don't want you to do that it's too much to ask of you!" I said kind of dropping him a hint.

"Don't argue with me-err, whats your name I never asked?" He asked almost concerned looking.

"Oh, Sammi." I said rather bluntly.

"Well thats a coinsidence, thats the name of Jinxx's wife!" He chuckled.

"I know, she's beautiful, so is Ella by the way!" I said complimenting him greatly because I knew Ella was the most important person in his life aswell as the rest of bvb of course!

"Yes they both are, as are you." He said as I blushed abit "Oh and by the way, are you being put in care now; If you don't mind me asking." He said as we went inside and took a seat again being greeted by the woman as we did so.

"I don't kn..ow." I sobbed with my head firmly in my hands. He then put his arm on my back soothingly.

"Sh sh sh." He whispered quietly "It'll be okay, you'll find a nice acepting family, I know it." He said trying to reasure me slightly but I didn't work, no one would acept a troubled once spoiled child that is considered to be 'emo' or 'goth' or 'scene' in this society, whats to like?

"Well Jake you can take a look now." The girl said turning her sketch to face him, his face lit up and he laughed.

"Kat it's amazing- I'm stoked!" He exclaimed hugging her.

"Thanks, we can fit you in monday at 9 is that okay? it will take a couple of sessions or quite a few hours" She said.

"Yesh thats fine, I guess I'll be going- sammi, here is my number for emergencies only or if you're ever upset." He said putting his hand on my back the leaving briskly. It's all darkness at the end of the tunnel...I thought I could do this; but i just can't.