Heart Strings - DreamNotFound

[24]A Harsh Truth

"alex why didn't you tell us something was wrong-"
george said pulling a chair to sit beside his friend, on the right side of his bed stood karl and sapnap, one holding his hand whilst the other gently rubbed his forehead

"because death is so saddddd" alex whined
"still- this is something you really should've discussed-"
"no listen right- i want people to be happy when they see me! to laugh! but the second people mention death everything's always so gloomy and shitty nobody wants that! i wanted to be able to have a laugh with my friends without people worrying that it was going to be the last"  alex said, he was speaking with his hands showing it was obviously something he'd thought about
"so what is wrong..?" dream asked
"brain tumour" he was simple with his answer
"surely you can just have surgery sapnap said-"

"no dream, it's malignant a stupid benign tumour in the frontal lobe"
"malignant?"
"it's basically gonna kill me no matter what" the way he spoke was so calm
"and youre just- fine with that?"
"george i don't want to spend my final few weeks crying everyday over something that's inevitable after all we're all dying! jesus just wanted to see these sweet cheeks quicker" quackity laughed, the room was still eerily quiet besides the beeping of machines
"oh come on! this is exactly why i hate death, you're all so sad and poopoo" quackity rolled his eyes then took out his phone and began just scrolling twitter

karl started to cry, sapnap tried to comfort hun as best he could
sapnap lead karl outside the room whilst dream and george spoke to alex
"hey baby, cmon don't cry it's okay" sapnap cupped karl's face wiping his tears
"i'm scared nick" he sputtered out
"i know, so am i, but we have to be strong for alex right now okay?"
"it's been so hard pretending everything's fine! everytime we've travelled to see someone like jimmy or even when we went to see bad and skeppy we had to pretend nothing was happening- alex- he did it so easily but me i was just crying everytime i was alone"
"i'm sorry my love, it's going to be alright, soon it'll be just us but we have eachother okay?" sapnap wrapped his arms around karl's neck, karl was visibly taller than sapnap but it was okay.

"now wipe those tears and be the strong boy i know, alright?" sapnap gently wiped karls final tears away and headed into the hospital room where alex was in bed, soon after a doctor had walked in

"hello so, i'm doctor turner, i've reviewed alexis' scans and it appears he may be liable for a surgery that could extend his current life span by atleast six months"
"SIX MONTHS- ALEX YOUVE GOTTA DO IT-" Karl grabbed alex's hand looking him in the eyes, yet alex didn't seem sure
"i don't wanna do it, i'm content with dying, it's just longing out something and making it more painful-" alex was cut off by sapnap asking the doctor
"what are the risks?"

"well as it's the frontal lobe and the tumour has developed magnificently since it was last reviewed by a medical facility we need to remove the whole thing- it's malignant of course so it will come back over a time period of two to eight months. The operation on the frontal lobe does have some risks of course, such as personality changes, aphasia, partial or complete paralysis as well as loss of memory, but these are rarely, most just deal with slight memory loss and some develop forms of arthritis and numbness in different parts of the body."
"i am NOT risking being a vegetable for the rest of my miserable life" alex seemed adamant
"i'll give you all some time to think" doctor turner left the room

"cmon alex youve gotta do the surgery- please it can give you more time" karl begged
"surgery or no surgery i am dying i will fucking die no matter what" alex shouted at them, the sudden change of tone caused everyone to go into silence
"i'm scared too okay? do you really think i want people poking around on my brain again! i've had these surgery's before and it comes back every single time but worse! last time i had one i had a migraine for three weeks and forgot how to fucking eat for a month and was on tubes- that was the week you guys planned to originally meet up last year but surprise surprise i was fucking dying and could barely eat so i couldn't come- this isn't fucking nice i said no just fucking deal with it" alex turned pulling the thin hospital blanket over himself and closed his eyes, it didn't take long with him unwell and how dosed up he was for him to fall asleep.

the four boys sat quietly in the room
"it's why he wouldn't do a hair reveal yknow" sapnap chuckled running a hand through alex's hair
"his heads covered in scars and some bald patches from where it didn't grow back after surgery" karl kept a weak smile
"has he been like this long?" dream asked as he held george who'd fallen asleep crying
"since he was nineteen, passed out in law school and had a seizure, the doctors tested everything since he was such a healthy person, one MRI and they found a small rumour, they removed it but since then they keep coming back" karl explained looking down at alex
"you love him don't you, you look at him the same way i look at george, as you do with nick" dream observed
karl and sapnap nodded simply confirming their special relation
"i'm happy for you both, i'm sorry i had to find out this way" dream was sincere with his words as he cradled george running a hand through his hair, he couldn't imagine what they were going through.

a/n

to the person who screamed about karl in every comment ; i almost changed it to karl to spite you lmaoooo , the original plan was it to be dream who was dying like when i wrote the brief for this story but i just liked his character too much so decided on quackitys character few days back. i appreciate your comments they make me laugh :)

i've only been writing this story five days and we're already on chapter 24- holy moly

thank you guys for the insane support ; i love you all even if you threaten me if i injure karl

hehe <3