𝒪𝓃𝑒 𝒮𝒽𝑜𝓉𝓈

2. Terrible friends

Request: No one

Ship/Pair: No ship/pair just OT5 (TXT) being best friends

Genre: Angst... Happy ending??

AU: Upper secondary / Non-idol

Synopsis: Beomguy is tired of having friends who don't care about him, will the other 4 apologise and change before something that can't be undone

Warnings: Cutting, unexplained eating disorder, blood, self hatred, anxiety, depression and suicidal tendencies

Important note: This is a vent writing

3rd person pov

In Beomguy's eyes, he would look at his 4 friends (Yeonjun, Soobin, Taehyun and Hyening Kai) and say that they were perfect and handsome. But when he would look at himself he would see so many flaws.

In his eyes he was fat, he was too loud, he was too tall, he smiled too much, he clings onto his friends too much, he annoyed his friends too much, he was always a disappointed, he was always failing his classes, he was always eating way more than he should, he was always on his phone.

In his eyes, he deserved to die. But he was too afraid, too afraid to kill him self even though he would make everyone else feel a lot better if he disappeared.

He decided to test his theory and skipped school for a week. None of his friends noticed he wasn't at school, and if they did, they didn't care. His parents weren't even surprised when they heard their son skipped school, but they also didn't say anything, just ignored him.

When he came back to school the next week, most of his friends looked pissed off to see him there. But they were surprised when Beomguy didn't even look at their direction and just went to class.

He sat trough every class of his, skipping lunch, like he had skipped every meal last week. He was now sitting behind a piano in the music room, having to participate on the club he chose as well. Soobin, who was annoyed at their friends, not Beomguy, and came to him during one of the breaks they had while in their music club.

"Guy... Can we, me and you, talk?" the taller bunny looking boy asked carefully, the shorter just nodded and the duo left the classroom. Leaving their 3 other friends shocked. Soobin and Beomguy stood in the hallway.

"What's going on? We're your friends but you've ignored us all day today..."

"Why would you or they, be my friends if you hate me... Like I don't know what you guys think about me... I'm annoying, I'm loud, I'm clinging onto you guys, I'm fat and I'm ugly... Why would you want to be friends with me, tell me honestly Soobin-ssi?" Beomguy looked at the taller boy, his sight slightly blurry because of tears that threatened to fall.

"Beomguy... I..."
"You know what, let's end the friendship between me and you guys, like it would make any difference" Beomguy took off a bracelet. They all had identical ones, but he was the only one still wearing it.

"This ends here" he said as he broke the self made jewellery, letting the beads fall to the floor, tears finally going down the boys face.

"Goodbye Soobin-ssi, say goodbye to the others as well and see if they care" Beomguy spoke before he walked down the stairs and left the school. He wouldn't come back there ever again.

Soobin on the other hand looked at the floor, at the beads of a broken bracelet. He could feel tears going down his face as he crouched down and took the 6 important beads.

One had a Y, other had a S, there was a B, along with an T and a H. It also had a star shaped bead as well. Soobin just sobbed, not caring who would see him.