" Lourdes i still love her bakit kasi ganito? masama bako? am i not worth it? bakit sa lahat ng tao sa mundo ako pa yung nag ka meron ng brain tumor?"
Yes you heard it right i have a brain tumor may taling na ang buhay ko i only have one year to live hindi totoong nag ka amnisia ako nung araw ng kasal namin nahilo ako bigla and unexpectedly i got unconcios the driver bought me to the hospital nung magising ako kinausap ako ng doctor he said i was sick sinabi niya na may brain tmor daw ako after that conversation with my doctor naisipan kong mag panggap na may amnisia ako nag pakasal ako kay lourdes my ex hindi ko alam kung bakit siya pumayag but still i'm thankful kasi pumayag siya
And kanina lang sa simbahan nakita ko siyang umiiyak it breaks my heart hindi totoong mataggal ko na siyang tinatawag i just said that para makalusot i ask kahit alam kona ang sagot
kanina gusto kona sabihin ang totoo nangmakita ko ang luha sa mga mata niya at ng tumalikod siya wala sa sariling naahabol ako at nag pakilala alam kong nasaktan siya ng makitang nag lakad ako patungo kay lourdes at sa mga anak niya yes may anak siya triplets hindi ko alam kung sino ang ama and i know my limitation
" jay walang may gusto sa nangyari everything happens for a reason masakit tanggapin na after a year maaaring mawala kana pero sana habang nandito kapa be happy magagalit ang mga inaanak mo sige ka"
i let out i deep sigh before i look at my inaanak haay kung wala lang sana ang sakit natoh may anak na den kami ni angelika
Months later
" LO-LOURDES " nanghihina man ay pinilit ni jay na sambitin ang pangalan ni lourdes
" bakit? may masakit ba sayo? wait tataw-" naputol ang pagsasalita ng babae ng umiling ito at may inabot na piraso ng papel
may nakasulat na pangalan sa papel Angelika
" You want me to give this to angelika am i right?" tango lamang ang sinagot nito at pumikit na ng tuluyan the sound of the machine beside of the bed echo in the whole room
" what the- shit!! shit!! jay wake up nurse nurse shit!"
ANGELIKA was busy scrolling down in her phone when someone knock on her room
" ma'am angelika may naghahanap po sainyo sa baba pinapasok napo namin kasi umuulan " sambit ng kasambahay at tango lamang ang sinagot niya
bumaba na siya ng bigla siyang kabahan ng makita si lourdes
" Angelika i just want to give this to you his last wish is to give this to you if you want to come to his funeral just call me " lourdes said and handed her the paper
inabot niya ito ng puno ng pagtataka she start reading what's inside the paper
dear angelika
hi baby! yes it's me jay your ex first if your reading this then i must be dead
baby sorry napaka duwag ko hindi ko kasi kayang makita kang umiiyak kaya tinago ko ang katotohanan i have a brain tumor natakot akong sabihin sayo kasi alam kong masasaktan sinulat kota habang may lakas pako baby always remember that i love you so much and you are the only one i love sorry my baby i love
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yun ang laman ng sulat without hesistation she run outside the house and look for Lourdes
" sakay" said the voice from behind at first she was shock pero nakabawi din kaagad
FUNERAL
" jay jay my baby baby wake up baby i love you please don't do this to me baby please"
jay was lying down in his white cofine peacefully parang walang sakit sayang hindi ako umabot maybe we are not meant to be at this life maybe at our next life
i love you baby i always love you
