Platonic soulmates

Dead boy pt. 1

(Wilbur pov yep he's alive don't worry I'll explain everything when I finish the story.)

I had only been back for a day but so fair I've heard l'manberg is gone, tommy went to prison,tommy was in exile and everything went to shit. Now I had to help tommy get his memory back. I wanted all the details but the only way to do that was to help tommy. I don't think he's very pleased with me. I found my way to technos house. It looked very not techno. I knocked on the door. I hoped no one was home so I could just go about my business. Of course someone was home.
'Finally you're here quick inside.' Wow it looked even worse on the inside. Techno really stepped down from anarchy.
'Hes down here.' I followed Sam down the stairs. We stopped in a small room. It looked like it was tommys. Techno was sat in the corner staring at the figure in the bed.
'Hello brother. Long time no see.' He didn't even look up to see me. He continued to look at the figure.
'Right straight onto business then. Is that tommy under there?'
'He's sleeping. Be quiet.' Techno has changed completely everyone had. I didn't want to know how Tommy had changed.
'Whats happening with him then?'
'Dream did something to him. He's not himself. He can hardly remember me let alone anyone else. You can help him then go back to being a selfish git.' So maybe techno hasn't changed that much.
'Can't I just stay with my brothers?'
'To be honest Wilbur you lost our brothership when you begged our father to kill you.' Ouch that stung.
'You caused tommy so much pain that he had to hide it all away. Causing him to finally hear the voices that Phil tried to stop.'
'Ok maybe I was a bad brother. But that doesn't excuse you to talk to me like that.'
'I don't give a damn Wilbur. You pushed Phil so hard he accused Tommy for your death.' Hold on a minute. I didn't know about this. Phil only told me what he apparently knew.
'Techno, where are you..' Tommy was awake. We must've woken him by arguing.
'I'm here Tommy it's ok. Your not back with dream.' I watched as tommy reached out for techno before techno pulled him into a hug. Tommy looked broken. Was that my doing?
'I have someone here to see you tommy. There going to help you remember who the small one was.' I saw tommy look over at me. He was wearing the coat I died in and my hat was in his hands.
'Who are you?' He didn't remember me. Well I have been dead for a while. I guess I had to help him remember.
'Your wearing my coat. It looks good on you.' He still wasn't picking up that I was his dead brother. The only memories he could possibly have with me that stick in his brain was the mean ones. This was gonna be tough.
'When I said your never going to be president you gotta understand that wasn't a challenge that's true. Your never going to be President tommy.'
'Wilbur what are you doing? This isn't going to be good.'
'I know what I'm doing techno.' I watched as tears formed in tommys eyes. It was working. I got closer to tommy.
'And I say if we can't have manberg. no one, no one can have manberg.' I needed one last moment to get Tommy back. I looked at techno. He wanted me to continue but he didn't want to see Tommy get hurt again. Then I realised what would bring tommy back.
'It was never meant to be.' Tommy was full on crying now. It had worked. Techno pulled tommy closer to him comforting him like I used too.
'Thank you Wilbur.' They had each other again. They didn't need me not anymore. I got up walking towards the stairs ready to leave this past life behind me.
'Will..' I stopped. Tommy voice was so quiet. When I died he was so loud he could fill a whole room with his voice. But everything's changed.
'Don't go again please..' I turned around to see Tommy looking over at me. His eyes were less blue then before. I couldn't think about what he had been through. Ghostbur barely told me anything when he left this place. I sat next to tommy feeling him holding my hand so tightly.
'I think you should show him tommy he should know.' Tommy didn't seem to pleased about techno saying that. He got up slowly standing infront of me. I didn't know what was going on but I didn't like it. I watched as he opened up his wings. Yet there was only one. I looked at techno he had seen this before.
'What the hell happened.'
'Dream cut it off while I was in exile..' As soon as I think something was bad another thing just tops it off.
'Where were you techno when this happened.'
'I was here. With Phil. Tommy came here by himself to get away from dream. I helped him after that.' Tommy came back and sat in between us I could feel him shaking a bit. He was traumatised and I wasn't there for him. I wanted to hug him just like we used to but he went straight to techno for comfort.
'I'll go get us some food you two stay and chat.' Techno went straight upstairs he was practically running. It got awkward real quick. I didn't want to talk I don't think Tommy wanted to talk either. I didn't like the silence. I had to fill it somehow.
'How's life with tubbo?'
'Dunno haven't seen him since I escaped from prison..' Welp conversation over already.
'I missed you. Even though you went crazy. I made you a grave it had your favourite things on it. Techno took your coat and hat though. I guess I have to give them back to you since your alive..' I didn't like this atmosphere. We were talking about my death.
'You can keep my coat and hat. It's nice to see you in it. There yours now.' Tommy looked at me. He finally looked at me properly. He wanted to tell me something. He needed to do it.
'I almost died in exile. Not accidentally. On purpose..' I wasn't expecting that as the news.
'I built up so high I could touch the clouds. My wing was gone I couldn't fly back down so I jumped. I remembered everything that happened. I stopped myself with my wing. It was cut in half hanging by a feather. I saved myself..' I couldn't believe it. When I died everything went to shit for him. I pulled him close. He didn't stop me he even reached for me.
'It's ok Tommy. That will never happen again. You have me back.'  It was quiet again. Tommy hardly moved.
'I don't want you back..' I looked down at tommy. He still had his face hidden in my chest.
'I hate you. I hate you so much..' I slowly pulled him away from myself to see his face.
'Uh techno little help!' I quickly got off the bed moving away from Tommy. Techno came running down stairs. I wasn't imagining things techno saw it too.
'Whats happening to him?!'
'Wilbur calm down your not helping.'

(Tommy's pov ⚠️suicide warning ⚠️ )

I buried my face into Wilburs chest finally happy that he was back. I hated it. He blew up my home and made our dad hate me.
'I don't want you back..' I felt anger rising up inside me. He didn't deserve to come back and act like my brother again.
'I hate you. I hate you so much..' I felt Wilbur back up. The red veins were on my face. This hasn't happened in weeks.
'Uh techno little help!' Wilbur backed away from me he was scared off me. He should be scared off me. I saw Technoblade run down the stairs. He noticed what was wrong straight away.
'Whats happening to him?!'
'Wilbur calm down your not helping.'
I wanted to leave this life behind. I wanted to be someone who could protect me.
'Tommy listen to me. Calm down. Don't let them control you.'
The voices appeared. They didn't want blood this time. They wanted revenge. They wanted to make Wilbur feel the pain that I had when he was gone. I felt Technoblade push me against the wall. The more I fought the harder it was to move.
'Techno stop your hurting him!'
'Wilbur let me do this. He needs to let out his anger this is the only way.' I was trying to fight Technoblade. He was too strong. I felt the voices call out more. They wanted revenge on Technoblade. I had to get them what they wanted. I lifted up my leg kicking Technoblade in the stomach. Causing him to fall back in pain.
'Well that worked didn't it techno!'
'Oh shut up Wilbur!'
I needed a weapon before they could escape.
'Fine I guess it's my turn.' I watched as Wilbur came towards me. I was prepared to fight him as well. He didn't attack me he didn't hold me against the wall. He got out a compass. I recognised it straight away. It was my tubbo compass. I'm sure I threw it away before Dream cut my wing off.
'Here. Your tubbo remember? Ghostbur gave it to you. He would want you to have it.' I took it quickly seeing the needle move around before locking in position. Tubbo was safe. I was safe. I felt the red veins retreat until I felt drained of all my energy. I fell onto my bed keeping the compass safe.
'How did you do that Wilbur.'
'Techno he's not like us. He has attachment issues and tubbo is his safety place.'
'That's pretty smart I guess.'
I felt so drained I didn't want to continue to hear them talking.
'Can you guys get tubbo and please shut up..' I watched them both look at me for a while.
'I'll stay with Tommy incase he lashes out again. You can go get tubbo. And be nice techno.' Techno left grunting at wills comment. It was nice to have them back.
'Tommy, what happened then. You went kinda wild.' I didn't want to talk about it.
'The voices got angry at you. I got angry at you. I never got to get rid of the anger I had when you blew up l'manberg. I was too busy dealing with the grief..' I looked at the compass seeing the needle move slowly. I smiled. Tubbo was coming.
'You need to get out your anger when you get angry so that doesn't happen again.' I didn't want a way out. I wanted to be free from everything. I just needed to control them.
'No. I don't want that..' I felt Wilbur sit down next to me. It felt strange like he wasn't really there.
'We want to help you but you've got to let us.' He reached for my shoulder touching it gently. I moved away.
'No! I don't need help I'm not a charity case!' I pressed the compass against my chest trying to think of tubbo.
'You're not a charity case. You're a kid who got caught up in lots of wars and ended up having a lot of issues with different people.' I didn't want to hear this. I knew what I had done I knew how many wars I had caused. I knew I caused my brothers death.
'My issues revolve around myself. If I was never born everything would be peaceful. No wars would ever happen.' He knew I had a point. I was always right.
'Tommy if you were never born I wouldn't have made l'manberg. Tubbo wouldn't have a best friend. And dream would control everyone.' I looked over at him. Dream did say that I was the one to resist him. I was the rebel.
'You may be annoying but you did great things Tommy.'
'That's true he's definitely annoying.' Technoblade was back already. But the tubbo compass was still in the same place.
'Where's tubbo..'
'Problem about that. He was busy building his house with this jackmainifold guy and-'
Techno stopped talking, I looked behind to see Wilbur gesturing at him to stop talking.
'That's ok. I didn't need him anyway. I'm better without him right..' I watched as the compass moved slowly.
'He's having fun without me! I'm his best friend!' I threw the compass up against the wall hearing the glass smash onto the floor.
'Tommy calm.' I stopped realising what I just did. I covered my face hiding the fact that I started crying.