New Hope Club Imagines

New Hope Club🥰

A/N : I know I know, it took me forever to update. I'm sorry but I do have a job which I'm normally 4-5 days at a time there and it's hard to type. I don't know when my next update will be and yes I'm still working on my other newer story I just don't know if I'll post it or not. Anyways this was requested by writingsongs so thank you for the idea 😊 hopefully everyone enjoys it, I'm sorry if it sucks lol 😊

~ Kenz~

George's P.O.V
I was sitting in Subway with the boys. They were in their own conversation while I was in my own mind. Lately that's all I ever do is be in my own mind rather than actually being a part of any conversation. I was reading more and more hate comments about me each day and I don't even understand why or what I did wrong.

"George?" I heard a voice cut into my thoughts.

"Yeah?" I asked looking up to see everyone looking at me. Which made me shrink into myself.

"See I told, he wasn't listening" Blake laughed as he ruffled my hair. The others laughed which I didn't understand why they laughed.

"It's ok G, we were just talking about the show later today" Reece smiled. 

"Oh yeah, it's going to be great" I said smiling. Blake gave me a look as in we need to talk alone. I just smiled and ignored it. The boys finally were done eating and then we left to the venue. Reece Tanner and Ben all went in but Blake kept me behind. Great.

"We will catch up in a few" Blake smiled, the others nodded and continued to walk in. 

"What is up with you lately?" Blake questioned. 

"I don't know what you're talking about" I said brushing it off. I didn't want to admit everything that was going on. 

"George you may be fooling the other three idiots, but you can't fool me. I'm your best friend I know you better then you know yourself." Blake sighed and crossed his arms. I rolled my eyes.

"I am perfectly fine, Blake quit worrying." I smiled as I went into the venue and met up with others.

"Everything ok?" Ben questioned. 

"Never better" I smiled.  Truth is I really just want to go hide away from everyone. I am so tired of being part of the hate. I know I get it; it comes with the fame whatever. I get more hate than any of the other boys. I'm too fat, I'm too ugly, I'm too annoying, I can't sing. The list just goes on and on, so yeah maybe I haven't eaten properly, I have self harmed, I want to tell someone but if I do then I'm scared it will get out and then everyone will have a whole new thing they can bully me for. 

"Alright guys, go out there and have a good show." Ben smiled. We all nodded and went to get ready to be on stage. I could feel Blake staring at me. But I ignored it.  We walked out on stage and I heard the screams all though I knew they weren't for me; it did drown out the thoughts I had for the most part.  We started the first song, and so far, everything was going fine. After a few songs I started to feel dizzy, most likely because I haven't eaten anything in a bit but also anxiety kicked in.  We started the song Crazy and my whole body froze when it came to my part. I went to sing but nothing came out. I tried to focus on the guitar, but I couldn't. I could just barely hear Reece's voice continuing my part of the song. Blake gave me a worried look, but I didn't pay much attention to it. I was trying so hard to get myself to play the guitar and just play the notes, but I couldn't. I could see everyone in the crowd giving me disgusted looks. Great another thing they are going to hate on me for. Why am I like this, maybe I should just go die? Soon I collapsed to the ground and all I heard was a ringing sound then soon I blacked out. 

"What the hell happened Blake?" I head a voice ask.

"He told me he was fine! I tried to press him about, but he refused to talk about it." Blake snapped back.

"Well, the doctors said he passed out with the lack of food. So clearly he hasn't been eating." I heard another voice which I think was Bens.

"He also has claw marks on his arms" Blake stated sounding kind of annoyed. Which I couldn't blame him if he were annoyed with me, I have kept this to myself for so long. 

"George, I don't know if you can hear me, but please know we all love you so much" I heard Blake say. I wanted to say something back, but I couldn't, I physically couldn't talk. I tried moving my body, but nothing worked.  After awhile I finally felt like I could move my body. 

"Guys he's waking up" Blake said happily. I opened my eyes, but I quickly shut them again because the bright light.  

"I'm sorry" I mumbled quietly.

"Don't be." Reece said.

"I should have said something" I said quietly. 

"George, it's ok we know it was probably hard to talk about." Ben smiled.

"I haven't had a proper meal in the past month, I claw myself all the time, I'm fat, ugly everyone hates me and now they are going to hate me even more now." I started crying.

"G, we love you, don't think anything different. You are not ugly whatsoever." Reece hugged me.

"I wanted to tell you guys, I just couldn't. I'm sorry" I cried.

"We love you so much" Reece smiled. After a day at the hospital, I could go home. I explained everything to my parents. They were annoyed which I understood. Blake is now basically living with me to make sure I am eating right and that I don't go on my phone. 

"How's my roommate doing?" Blake smiled as he came into my room. I rolled my eyes.

"you can go home. I wont harm myself" I said slightly annoyed.

"Look, I love you I just want to make sure you are going to be Ok" he smiled as he hugged me.

"I am glad you're here Blake" I smiled as I snuggled into him.

"Reese wants to be here too but he has to take care of Lexi for the weekend since their parents are going away for the weekend" Blake laughed.

"We can face time them later, right now I just want to sleep" I smiled as I closed my eyes.

"I'll be here when you wake up. Sleep well" Blake said as he kissed my forehead. I smiled and snuggled more into his chest.