365 days Apart (l.s)

DAY 362

Friday, January 18

TW: EATING DISORDER

I woke up at 6am so I can't call harry, so I don't need to eat, thank god. I had some water though, not a lot but enough to keep me alive. Niall wanted to come over today so I guess i'm gonna hang out with him. 

9am: Why is harry calling me. I don't want to listen to him telling me he loves me and that everything will be fine. WHEN NOTHING WILL BE FINE. I answered him. Hey Harry. I'm choking out the words, i'm about to cry. "Hello my lovey, I heard you're hanging out with Niall, good lad good lad." He doesn't sound happy.. Um yeah, I don't have to if you don't want me to, its fine. Why am i about to cry? "No I want you to hang out with him! I just I don't know, I don't think he's you know, straight." What the fuck, he was like the straightest band member. That's why we gave him the gayest parts of songs.. Harry he's the straightest male that was in our band. i chuckle "Yeah whatever i have to go bye" whats wring with him "Okay lov-" why did he hang up. 

12pm: A ring at my door, I open it. "Hey Nia- Liam? Why are you here?" I wasn't expecting that.. "Oh hey, Niall canceled so I decided to come!" Why the hell did he cancel?? "Oh okay, come in." I'm wearing short sleeves. Shit. "Louis Tomlinson, did Harry not tell you to stop? What the hell is wrong with you mate. Talk to me" Tears are rushing down my face "I love him so much Liam, I never wanna lose him. When i'm sad he's there for me and I haven't eaten in days and when I do I throw it up when i get off the phone with Harry. All I drink is water, I cut everyday and it hurts. I want a hug from him. From harry. Liam I feel incomplete without him, I feel like i'm living for him, and when he's not there, I feel..." Silence. It's so quite. I'm on the floor being cradled by Liam. Crying. "Louis, lets get up and eat something. Okay?" We slowly get up, i'm still crying. "What would you like to eat, Lou." Silence for 2 whole minutes all you can hear is my sniffles. "I don't know liam. Just a sandwich i guess" He's grabbing the ingredients, and makes it for me. I eat and we watch some movies together. until 8pm.

8:30pm: I get ready for bed, I've had a long day. I text harry goodnight and that I love him. And he sent a paragraph, It read: 

Goodnight Louis, goodnight to the best man I've ever met. I don't ever want to leave you, I want to be with you forever until death. Until we have our last breath, you mean the world to me and if I have to stay away from you for a year so i can be with you the rest of my life I will, you are my one and only and i'm so so glad I married you Louis William Tomlinson I never ever want to lose you again. I love you. 

(that's all for today, i'm not making anymore chapters today, i'm getting my nails done ;) so that will take up the rest of my day.. also people from my school pls stop making fun of my for writing about 2 people it hurts a little bit especially since they're the reason i'm here writing this in the first place. That's all byee) also i noticed some mistakes in my last chapter its only that I didnt capitalize the  I's so sorry about that