365 days Apart (l.s)

DAY 354

Sunday, January 31 

(tw: eating disorders,,, hopefully last chapter! )

I woke up early, super early. 5am early. The house is a mess, Harry is coming tomorrow and I haven't showered in a week, every time I got changed I just threw my clothes on the ground I haven't washed anything since he left, including the dishes when my friends came over, or when i drank water. 

7am: I actually get out of bed, and take a shower, I wash my face and then just sit in the shower and think; I'm a failure, Harry's gonna tell I lost weight, i'm too fat, I want Harry to hug me, he should be here, I shouldn't be here.

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11am: I throw everything in the washer and dryer so I have to wait 2 hours before they're finished, I'll just go clean the dishes, soap, water, clean. Soap, water, clean. 

1:00: I get my clothes out of the dryer and fold them, put them away, and then decide to call Harry. "Good morning, Loubear" Loubear. I love when he calls me that Good morning lovey I say this with so much cheer in my voice i cannot wait to see him! "I leave at 2pm and will be to your house by 8am tomorrow my love!" I can't wait! "But won't everyone be talking about how you're coming back to UK after saying that you'll be in the united states for a year?" "No, I said I missed my family so I wanted to come back for 2 weeks and on thursday Febuary 14th I have to go back to the US. I have to get ready to leave because its already 1:30 and i have to leave to fly at 2. I love you goodbye." I love you too I cant wait to see you and I hang up.

2pm: He texted me, he said I love you and of course I said I love you too.

The rest of the day i'm just gonna clean a little bit more, watch netflix and then go to sleep, still not eating. 

(Okay so i lied it wont be the last chapter, throughtout the 14 days Harry will be trying to help him with it so will Niall, Liam, and Zayn. Follow me on twitter i post a lot: lol_tidepods that's all)