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[Beomgyu's point of view]

Kino hung up on Y/N after discussing the situation and deciding that they'll be going to a hotel, the worst part is that I never got the name of the damn place they're staying at, all because they know that I can listen in to their calls.

And DAMN IT! They're taking Y/N away?! They can't do that!

They can... They legally can, they have her consent. Y/N isn't being taken away with them, it's worse than that, she's running away with them. Running away from me.

If only I had managed to kill Kino properly the 1st time none of this would've happened. I swear that I shot him In the heart, did I miss, are you supposed to shoot more than once? I'M AN IDIOT!

It isn't Kino's fault, its yours. The other voice in my head told me. The voice has been popping up a lot now, it sounds just like me. I think the voice is part of one of my disorders, but it just started 3 days ago so whatever it is must be getting worse.

One thing I know for sure is that I'm getting more depressed, but it can't be that. 

I stumbled back and hit something which I slid down with my back, now sitting against it, it was only a tree but it hurt my back like hell. Your legs gave up on you, what are you going to do now? Your time is running out. SHUT UP! I know it is, I don't need you to remind me.

I'm useless now, may as well sit here and cry, it's all I can do before I get found and taken away by some sort of hospital or put in prison. At least I can starve in prison. You're already starving, jackass. Your anorexia is the first thing that's killing you. Fuck off Beomgyu! Hah! You told yourself to fuck off. Look at you, you hate yourself.

He's just making this worse... He has a point though, I do hate myself. I'm all gross, I'm in a dark forest and I'm lonely apart from having Chaeryeong's corpse and another consciousness to drive me insane. Not my problem, you're the one who killed her, should've kept her alive. Are you crazy?! She would've ran!

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No reply. I'll take that as me being right.

So, what are you gonna do- Oh look at that hare, pretty cool, right? I can't even see the hare you nitwit! Shut up or I'll kill you, I'm trying to think about myself, not you, you don't even have the rights to be in my mind. 1st of all I'm not sure if you know but yes, I very much do have the rights, I'm just you but a little different. 2nd, you can't kill me unless you kill yourself, and I'm not letting you do that.

What do you mean 'not letting me do that'? I'm a grown man, I do what I want, you aren't stopping me. I've accomplished a lot on my own, I was Y/N's boyfriend two times already, that's an achievement. Is breaking up an achievement too? Is her running away with her friends an achievement? Is her being scared of you at one point an achievement.