When Everything Want Wrong

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Do you remember when you felt like you could do anything? Yeah, me to and then do you remember when it all started to get bad. Well hello there am Alexis Moore but my friend call me Lexi and this is my story. I know your like another person who just wants attention well maybe your right and maybe your wrong I think you should keep reading to find out.

So it all started when I was around 8 my grandparents passed away. That night when we found out my mom had me and all my siblings stay at someone else house. But we were at different people homes it was me and my sister (Leah) and then my older brothers(Colby and Caleb) were somewhere else. And all I was hopeing is that someone would show up like my mom or dad that night and just brought me back home. But I guess you don't always get what your hopeing for though. Then I want home everything seemed find. We had a funeral and then nothing was the same I barely saw my aunt and cousin. I felt like my family was falling apart and I couldn't do anything about it.

A couple of night or weeks want by and I woke up to my older sister and mom fighting. I couldn't do anything my older sister left so I didn't have her to help anymore. I didn't have my big sis who I looked up to, to help me to find my way in the world. I did see her every now and then but when she was around she needed help or she was mad. I didn't see the sister I grow up with anymore she wasn't the one I looked up to. And then we moved and I didn't see any family that I had lost in that year span.

We moved to Virginia so we didn't just move streets or something like that no, everything was new. I didn't know anyone but I was still that happy little girl that I thought everyone needed because so much had already changed. My older sister(Hayley) she came back around but not for long. We would go a year or more not talking to her but I never really had her back in my life. And this happened more then once and each time I told myself don't let her back in and I did everytime because she's my big sister why wouldn't I but I got hurt everytime and I hated it because I knew it was coming.

Um, so that happened but I also lost my aunt on my dad's side. Then one of those times that Hayley came back she had a dog. That dog was awesome, she had to come live with us for a little well my sister was moving. We were fine for a little there then she got her dog and we did really hear from her. Then Bella(her dog) got cancer(I mean we were back on talking to Hayley for a little) and Bella passed away non of us really know because she didn't verbally say it to us. We were all heartbroken and I start to hurt more then I ever thought was possible (I was around 12 at this time) and I did think I was getting out of it. I did for about I year and a half there bit then something happened and I was back to doing almost nothing all the time. But I still tried to be that little girl that I really wasn't anymore but I got so use to it, it was my conference zone. My little sister(Leah) she would always yell at me to get up and go outside with her but I did really have the energy. I would use all me energy at school so no one would worry about me.
I guess this story is a bit about wanting attention and who does want that. I mean all of us are guilty for it so is it so wrong for me to want a little to. I know I said in the beginning you might be wrong but it's not the end yet.

Yeah I know I'm doing all the talking here and your thinking are we going to here from anyone else. Well how about I do a flashback so you can hear everyones thoughts from that but where do I start from the beginning?