Pyrophobia

Arsonphobia -10-

Chapter Ten

I was disgusting, how on earth, could he love me? He deserved so much more than what I could offer him. I felt my body shake as I silently cried on the edge of the bed. I sniffled, trying to keep noise at a minimum so I wouldn’t wake him up.

The long nightgown dress was cream; the bottom was touching the cold hardwood floor as I placed my feet of the edge of the bed. As I looked up my vision blurred, a few stray tears went tumbling down my heated face. How could he touch me and still look at me the same? How can he act as though I don’t have anything wrong with me, when clearly I do?

I felt the bed move a little, dipping down as he restlessly rolled over. I thought I was safe when I didn’t hear anything else; but soon the bedside lamp turned on and I felt a soft and gentle hand rest on my shoulder.

“Baby, come back to bed. It’s all right.” He whispered. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. He knew me better than I knew myself sometimes, and here I am right now, wanting him to get what he deserves, but I’m too selfish to let him go. I felt him kiss my shoulder as he rubbed circles in my lower back, calming me down instantly.

“I c-can’t.” I whispered in between quiet sobs. The bed dipped in even more as I felt both his arms wrap around my waist and bring me to the front of his body. We were still sitting up, but he still managed to find a way to make it comfortable.

“Don’t think right now, okay; just… feel. I love you for a reason, and you’re beautiful the way you are so stop worrying yourself over it.” I took a deep breath and let it all out, nodding my head. With his arms still wrapped around my torso, he managed to lay us down back onto the pillows. I knew he wasn’t going to sleep for the rest of the night, and I couldn’t have felt worse about it. Like he always said; when I was in pain… so was he.

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What if, before you even knew it, you met your other half? You wouldn’t even know it, it could be a split second eye contact, and then you would never see them again. They would wander out of your life just as fast as they came in.

What if, before you even knew it, they were your best friend? Your connection grew stronger with each passing day, but you didn’t consider it more of a friendship and married the wrong person?

So many things can happen to someone in a day that it could change your destiny within split seconds. I believe my destiny had been re-written the day that I had I gotten burned. I would probably have met my prince charming, and he would be telling me everything I wanted to hear, just like my dream last night. Sadly though, you can’t skip chapters and read ahead of your own life, so I just have to wait. I have to wait for someone who will make me myself again. Who knows how long that will take?

As I was walking towards my locker, I couldn’t stop thinking about it. Had I already met him? What if he was Avery, would I be able to live with that? Of course not, that’s a stupid question. In all honestly, I felt alone, more alone than I have ever felt in my life. Have you had that happen to you?

Mr. Hunt told us the day he felt it awhile ago, he was walking around the city with some of his new friends. He was in college at the time, barely even knowing the people he was hanging out with. They were all having a good time, walking around and laughing, and then all of the sudden, it hit him and it hit him hard. He felt out of place, truly alone. He missed his family and old friends. Sure, he could make new ones, but would it really be the same?