Breathless

Chapter | 12 |

Lex's P.O.V

Friday, 8:50 pm.

        I knew it was time, time to share my true self with the one person I loved most. That was Alicia.  I looked at her beautiful face. I just hope she still wants to be with me.. after I tell her.

        "Alicia, can I tell you something?" I looked at her. I was nervous, she could tell.

        "Yes. What's wrong?" She grabbed my hands and smiled.

        "It's important. Lets go sit." I replied to her, trying to keep a smile. I lead her to the couch. 

        Alicia's P.O.V

           She lead me to the couch, I was really curious to what she had to tell me. Also nervous. What if she asked me something life changing?

        "I...I..." Lex couldn't seem to spit out what she was trying to tell me. I placed my hand on her thigh and rubbed it. Trying to comfort her a little.  "I'm bipolar.. and I have schizophrenia. I mean it's not an active disorder. Only occurred once in my life. Now.. Bipolar happens often.. that's why I was a little out of control a couple days ago. I am so sorry." She looked down.

        I kept a smile on my face. "I understand." I hugged her tight. "I won't love you any less. You are my heart." I truely understood her. I didn't care what disorder she had. She was the one for me. I knew it. 

Friday, 10:45 pm.

        After all that, we went into the bedroom and cuddled. Watching scary movies. I kept getting scared and she would hold me tight. I felt safe with her. Always. The movie was over and we were still cuddling. But that cuddling turned into something much more. Lex pulled my body closer to her, climbing on top of me. Face to face Leg to leg. Eye to eye. I swear she made me feel like everything was weightless. The sensation of her lips on mine. Our bodies became hot, I loved the feeling. She pinned me on the bed, staring directly in my eyes. I wanted to look away, but I couldn't.

        "Can I try something?" Lex looked at me as she asked. I wasn't sure what she wanted to try.  But I was willing. I didn't care what.

        Lex pulled out her strap. Looks like she was planning for this in the first place. I didn't care, I was down.

        "I will be gentle with you. I promise." She kissed my forhead and removing the rest of her clothes.

        "Okay. I trust you. I love you." I smiled. She was now naked and she pulled my panties off. She slid her strap inside of me really slowly, luckily I was already wet.

        She held me down, sliding it inside of me slowly. I was moaning. She kissed my neck, and went down to my nipples. In circular motions her tongue swirled. This went on all night. 

Saturday, 7:23 am.

        I woke up, and I had bruises and scratches. On my arms and legs. My head hurt. I couldn't understand what had happend. Lex was by the window. Looking out viewing the view of the campus. She looked upset with herself. I got out of bed and hugged her from behind.

        "Don't touch me... don't get near me..I can't..." She mumbled and pulled me away.