All Smiles

Chapter 14

"Is he up yet? I'd like you to leave." Huh?

"No, hes not." Tyler?

"Brent- could you like... not be an asshole for a little bit? Our friend passed out and we are concerned for him thank you very much." Reese?

"Guys?"

"See! Hes up! Now get out!"

"Brent shut up. I've got a headache." Its true. My head hurts so much.

"Ugh!" The door slams and I hear stomping going down the hall.

"Smiles?" I blink up at Tyler. 

"Tyler? Reese? What are you doing here?" What time is it? 

"I came here after I didn't see you at classes." Reese sits at the foot of my bed, fiddling with her pink bracelet. 

"Why wasn't I in-" Oh yeah... I told Tyler I loved him and- he loves me! He said he loves me! And I told him- oh shit. I told him what I did. Why is he here then? Did he tell Reese?

"You passed out earlier, Smiles. I stayed here and then Reese came." Tyler stayed? Why?

"Why?" 

"Why did you pass out? Well it was because of the panic attack."

"Panic attack?" When did I have a panic attack?

"Yeah? From when you told me that thing. You had a panic attack about it. You've had multiple since I've known you. Well, the beginnings of them. I'm always able to calm you down. Anyways! You passed out." He explains it so casually, like its not a huge deal.

"I've never had a panic attack before. I get worried a lot and I loose focus for a bit, but I don't have panic attacks." It couldn't have been a panic attack. I don't get panic attacks.

"Smiles, its okay to have panic attacks." Reese says.

"But I don't."

"You do." Tyler says, grabbing my hand. 

"But..."

"You do."

"Are you okay? It must have been a bad one if you passed out." Reese says. I look over at her.

"I don't... I can't... I-"

"Smiles can't tel you yet." Tyler says for me. Reese looks a little upset, then sighs.

"Thats okay. I wasn't really expecting you too. You don't tell me anything." Shes right. I don't. I've known her for almost 2 months now, and I've only known Tyler for a few weeks yet he knows more about me then she dose.

"I'm so sorry Reese. I just- I can't." She sits up.

"You're right. You don't have to tell me. It must be something really big or hard for you to talk about if just telling Tyler made you pass out. I get it. Just know I'm always here for you." She pats my cafe.

"I'm sorry Reese. Thank you for being so cool about it." I tell her. She nods. 

"I'm gonna go get us some dinner. I'll be back soon." She says. She gets up and leaves.

"Smiles, about what you told me-" I feel myself tear up. This is it. Hes gonna break up with me.

"I don't care." What.

"What ever reason you did it for must be really justifiable. I know you, you wouldn't do it without reason." What.

"You don't care. You really don't care? I would get it you know. I'm-"

"You're perfectly fine. I don't care. And guess what." He smirks. 

"What?"

"I love you." Something brakes in my chest and I feel a wave of relief hit me so hard it almost makes me cry.

"God I love you so much." I hug him and press kisses all over his face. 

He loves me and he doesn't care. He must be one of a kind.

I place a kiss on his lips.

"I love you, Smiles. I love you so much." He whispers then kisses me again. He hold me close to him and I feel all the tension roll off my shoulders. Gosh, I feel 10 pounds lighter. I didn't realize how much this was weighing on me. 

We sit quietly until Reese comes back. 

"So- they wouldn't let me take any food back to the dorm, so you guys have to come get food with me." She says.

Tyler and I get up and slip on our shoes. We head down to the cafeteria and I'm smiling the entire way there. 

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"Smiles- hey, can I ask you a question?" Tyler asks. We are studying in his room, Reese was with us, but then he had to leave for his therapist meeting. I'm studying with Tyler until his begins. 

"Sure."

"I was wondering if you wanted to come home with me this weekend. I know you usually go meet you family, and I understand if you don't want to, but I want to take you to meet my parents." He looks nervous, and I can only assume its because hes scared I'll say no.

I smile at him.

"Yeah, that would be really cool." He grins and hugs me.

"Anything specific I should know before we go?" I ask. He hasn't talked much of his parents so I don't know if there are any topics I should avoid.

"No, not really. You know the basics. Joey is part of a gang, but hes never done anything illegal. Well, anything to bad. He was a stupid teenager raised by a gang so of coarse he broke some rules. But he doesn't really care. My Uncle Cupcake might be there. Hes a bit rough around the edges but... what?" Did he just say... I start laughing. I can't help it!

"Uncle Cupcake?! Ha!" He lifts a perfect eyebrow at me.

"Yes, Uncle Cupcake, but if you laugh at his name in front of him- he might beat you." I try to stop the laughing, and eventually  I get myself under control.

"My Uncle Cupcake was the one who convinced the other members to let dad live with them. Anyways- Dad- Joey, can seem a little angry at times, but hes usually not. My other old man, Gray- he got in some legal trouble when he was a kid and his parents kicked him out. He lived with my Uncle Tanner until he was old enough to move out." He blinks.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to give you their whole life stories." I laugh. 

"Its fine. Let me call my mom and tell her I'll be with you." He nods. I pull out my phone.

"Hello honey. Is something wrong?"

"No. I just wanted to tell you that I'll be spending the weekend with Tylers folks. Is that okay?" 

"..."

"Mom?"

"So you're not coming here?"

"No, not this time."

"Okay. We will miss you. Maybe call your sister and father later, they will want to hear from you. And Blaze, and your other friends, but definitely Blaze. Poor boy."

"What happened with Blaze?"

"Oh nothing extreme. Milos family went on a trip I think and hes just been out of sorts because of it."

"Oh. I thought he was hurt or something."

"No, nothing like that.-" A loud beep, the oven I guess, goes off.

"Call me when you can. I have to deal with the food now. I love you."

"Love you too mom."

So it's okay for you to come?" Tyler looks up at me. I smile.

"Yeah. Next weekend we go to mine though."

"Deal." I kiss him quickly. 

"I love you so much." He smirks.

"I love me too."

"Hey!"