PURPOSE (Tomura Shigaraki x Reader)

"They're just kids"

A/N: Im sorry if I fuck up on the timeline and cornaidating it with the events of the show, some of it is by mistake and some is done intentionally for my own convenience.  Always open to criticism<3

I sloppily fold the clothes from my closet and toss them into the bag with rest of my school stuff, break was almost over and I needed to be ready to go back to university. I get interrupted by a knock on the door.  

"Come in" I raise my voice, not wanting to stop my task so I can finish quickly. The door opened and I turn to see my teary eyed, shaking mother peak around the corner. I drop the clothes and rush to her. 

"Is everything okay? What's wrong?" Through stutters of gasp and tears she finally gets her words out. She told me that Izuku had just gotten a letter from UA high. The letter that would either accept or deny him into the best hero academy, his dream school. 

"Its gonna be okay. He has a strong quirk now, he's super smart, and he's kind. He would be the perfect hero. He's gonna make it in and he's gonna be great." I say as I hug her tightly. She barely questioned it when Izuku randomly manifested a quirk almost 11 years after he was supposed to, I suppose she was just happy he could pursue his dreams and i didn't want to be the one asking all the questions and I didn't want so seem jealous or upset. But I know something is up with him, but I kept it to myself. I just stepped outside my room into the hallway. Outside of Izukus room I paced with my mom, I kept reassuring her that he would get accepted when I wasn't sure myself. Finally his door opened and my mother swung around, before he even spoke a word she burst into tears and broke away from me.

"Izuku!" She cried, I stood my ground and just watched and waited to find out if he was denied or not. His head fell onto our mother as she fell into him. A smile came across his face and his eyes watered as he told up he got accepted in with 40 points.

I almost couldn't believe it. My little brother, who just a month ago was quirkless, was just accepted into the top hero academy. It was unbelievable. I walked closer and me and mom told him how amazing he is and how proud we are. Eventually the high emotions fell and I went back to my room to finish packing. I was so proud to have Izuku as a brother, even before he manifested a quirk. But I couldn't help but be exactly what i didnt want people to think i was, jealous and upset. Why did he randomly develop quirk when I never did? Is he special? If so, why arent I? The thoughts continued as I finished packing, and soon enough I was done.  As soon as I finished, as much as I wanted to fall into my bed and relax, I went into the kitchen to be with my family. I walk out and see my mom cooking dinner, probably something Izuku requested, and I can vaguely see Izuku through the window going out into the small balcony of our apartment. 

"Need any help?" I ask, trying to make myself useful to my mother. I always did what I could to help mom. She raised 2 kids, practically alone and that deserves a reward. More specifically she raised 2 kids like me and Izuku, she really deserves a reward for that. I help my mom finish dinner and set a place to eat, I step out onto the balcony and tell my brother dinners ready. He follows me inside and we all sit and eat. Both of them are clearly still shaken up about UA. I tried to keep everything chill to avoid tears being shed. Dinner goes over smoothly not long after me and Izuku go back to our rooms. I lay on my bed and just breathe for a few moments. The bed is soft and comforting under my slightly aching back. Despite my body relaxing my thoughts continued to take a toll on me. I never understood people fixation on heros. Everything about it just felt..wrong. I couldn't find the words but I felt wrong praising heros in any way. But with my brother and everyone else constantly applaud heros in whatever they do, so I kept that silent. Assuming it was my jealousy of not have a quirk at all.