My Tears Still Fall

I miss the memories, but not you

I have taken some time for myself.

It has taken me a while to get this all sorted out.

But… I think I was wrong.

I was talking to Deku about what happened between you and me.

I got so angry.

I started thinking that maybe.. I should tell you my side of the story.

We were talking as we usually do everyday.

Then you just stopped.

It was until a week later when you apologized for not texting me.

And I wished that never occurred. I wish that day never occurred.

Because afterwards, you became distant and angry.

I tried.

I tried to ask you if you were okay.

But you never wanted to answer it.

Everytime we talked, it was like a warzone.

You would argue with me for days on end about something stupid.

I tried to not fight, but you kept provoking me.

...you would call me weak.

I already had to deal with that coming from my mother, but hearing that from you.

Goddamn, I wanted to hate you.

I really, really did.

But my heart wouldn't allow me.

On the rare occasion where we weren't fighting, I would ask if I could come over.

I wanted to see you, your mom, and your step-dad.

But everytime I would ask, it was always no.

No.

No.

No.

Never was it a yes after that one day.

I was really worried about you simply because I cared for you.

I became so overwhelmed because of you.

I broke down into tears.

Mina calmed me down.

I wished it was you.

But it wasn't.

…Whenever you would say someone was pretty, I had to be a "good friend" and say that you should get together.

But whenever I would say someone was attractive, you would throw a tantrum like some kid.

It made me think that you loved me.

But it's now obvious that, after that day, you didn't.

I did.

More than a friend.

I wanted to kiss you.

I wanted to hug you.

I wanted to tell you it was all going to be okay.

But you never wanted me.

When I would say Eiji, you would tell me to stop.

But I never wanted to stop.

I wanted to say it for my entire life.

Because I wanted to be Katsuki Kirishima.

But that was never meant to be.

As I'm reflecting on this.. whatever you would call it relationship,

I don't miss you.

I don't want to miss you.

And I don't feel the need to miss you.

Though, one thing that's for sure…

I miss the memories of you.

I miss the memories of your love from before.

I miss the memories of us.

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Happy late Valentine's Day! I was going to post this on Valentine's Day, but I didn't want to be cruel-