My Kitty (Levi x Neko! Eren) Ereri/Riren

20 ~ Levi's Diary

Eren's POV

I rushed down the long corridors and finally reached in front of Levi's bedroom door, something felt off. I know it was 'just a room' but I don't know if I was ready to go back in there, me and Levi were the last people to leave this room and now he's gone. I reached my hesitantly reached out my hand and placed in onto the door handle, the coldness that infected my hand almost instantly gave me small flashbacks to the night prior. We were so excited for our first date and now here I am alone once again, not even being able to open the stupid door because of the once happy memories that it'll bring me. Yet, I managed to bring myself to do it and as I slowly twisted the handle I could practically feel my breathing slow down and the feeling of comfort swam through me. I walked in and took a deep breath, you could still smell him. The smell of the air freshener filled the tidy room and I couldn't help but notice something placed down upon in bed, it was a small envelope and written directly on the front of it was my name. I picked it up gently and immediately recognised the handwriting, "Levi..." I whispered to myself as I mindlessly traces the lines on my name. I felt myself tear up a little bit but quickly held them back, opening up the envelope careful not to rip it too much hoping that I could keep it for memories. I took out the contents of it and was quick to smile lightly at what I saw, there were small but detailed drawings of me. I never knew he could draw, I wish I would've known that when he was alive. I checked to see if there was anything else in it and noticed a few pieces of paper, I read them out slowly taking in every word that was written on it. Thank god for Hanji's reading lessons I thought to myself.

12th June
I actually smiled today, I know right. Me, The Levi Ackerman smiled today and it was all thanks to some shitty blue green eyed brat. I spoke to Hanji and Erwin about my feelings hoping for a bit of closure, I mean I had never felt these feelings toward anyone before. It's like they're just coming full force at me and they're so hard to control especially when I'm around Eren. He genuinely makes me happy and never fails to make me feel this certain way, anyways.. I told Hanji and Erwin about this and they said that the only explanation for this was that I was inlove. Honestly, I believe them. I've been growing closer and closer with Eren and I can almost feel my heart beat speed up whenever he's around or even when I just hear his name. I wouldn't mind spending the rest of my life with him and that's what I plan to do. I'm also planning on taking him on a date tomorrow night, I can't wait and I hope he enjoys it. I'm not sure what I'm going to do but I'm sure I'll figure something out. Eren's just walked in with that sexy ass of his got to go bye.

I felt myself giggled at that last bit, it definitely lifted up my mood dramatically just reading it. There was plenty more pages that were in the envelope and i found myself reading them all, it was kind of like a coping mechanism. It was like he never actually died and that he was still here with me, talking with me and laughing with me. I almost forgot that he was gone. All of a sudden I got snapped out from my thoughts from the sound of cadets walking through the halls, I had accidentally forgotten why I even went back into the room and had to take a second to look around to try and remind myself. "Jumper" I reminded myself out loud in hopes to not forget again and quickly walked over to Levi's wardrobe, his shirts and jumpers were all hanged up nicely and colour coded which probably didn't take very long since most of them were just black with maybe a little hint of colour ever now and then. I took out one of the first over sized jumpers that I saw which just happened to be his favourite and quickly put it on, I took a small sniff from it. I know it was probably weird of me to do but at this point I felt like I need all the comfort that I could get. Luckily, the jumper had still smelled like him and I literally had to force myself to separate my nose from the sleeve and leave the room to go to the cafeteria. I hope Hanji wasn't waiting too long for me, I know I had only told her I was going to get a jumper but I wasn't planning on basically finding pages of Levi's secret diary about me.

Hanji's POV

I was honestly dreading this speech that Erwin was going to give to the cadets, I knew it was going to break Eren but it needed to be talked about. I watched the clock silently as I awaited for Eren's arrival, it had already been ten minutes and he still hadn't arrived. He only said he was grabbing one of Levi's jumpers but he seemed to be caught up in something else. As the last few bunch of the scouts started filing in I finally spotted the brunette and waved him over to sit next to me.

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Hello! Sorry this was just kind of a filler chapter, I swear they will get better. Also, I'm sorry if I made any spelling mistakes during this! It is literally 2:24am when writing this but I of course won't publish this until maybe 13:00 depending when I will wake up haha 😅 anyways... hope you enjoyed!!