Secret Lovers *not finishing*

Chapter 13, Starts from here

Harrys Pov

I peer through the window as I watched the women shock him to life. "400 Shock!" The tall nurse yells to the others. The only thing I'm focused on is his heart monitor and the noise that comes out. "Come on." I whisper as I stare through the glass panel. I watch as she shocks him again and his body arches further up than any other times, then I hear a noise I been waiting for.

Beep Beep Beep

Beep Beep Beep

"He's back! Hurry get me the IV and needles." Their voices soon turn into muffled noises as I see his chest slightly moving up and down. "Oh my god." I mumble and I notice my hands were trembling as I walked over to the door, the boys right behind me. The tears finally flow down my face as I see him. I run to his bed side and look to the nurses and doctor "Thank you, I can't th-thank you enough." I choke out to them. I blink away the tears to see Louis face, the one I thought I lost. He was actually so beautiful, he was gorgeous. I lean down and put my head to his slow breathing chest. His heart beat was so rhythmic, and I could listen to it all day. Someone pulls me away and lifts me up from the ground.

"Hey! What do you-I cut off noticing it was just Liam. "Liam what do you want." I hiss. "What happened, where have you been for the past week!" I just glance back down to Louis and the memories flood into my head and I feel the tears beginning to form. I shake my head and slap his arms off of mine and look down at my feet. "Answer the damn question Harry." He growls. I could tell Liam was pissed, because usually he'd settle things in a friendly manner, but he didn't this time. He grabbed the collar of my shirt and look at me straight in the eyes. "Harry god dammit I sware if you don't tell me why Louis is here and why you have been gone, I sware to god." He hisses under his breath. "I'll tell you if you let go of me!" I shout at him. I see Niall take a step forward closer to Liam to make sure he was alright, but Liam just shoots a grin at him, reassuring everything was okay.

Liam grabs my hand and leads me to outside of the hallway, pulling me further away from my Louis. I look back and see Louis is alright, his slow steady chest telling me he was alive and okay. "Okay talk." Liam says. I look up to meet his eyes and guilt washes over me. "I-I left because I got annoyed with Louis." I throw the lie at Liam. He looks at me confused and says "How? Do you know how broken he was? I know he thinks we can't tell but we could. He was heartbroken, shattered, he would barely talk to anyone! And when he did he snapped at us!" Liam shouts at me. I look down "I-I just needed a break away for a little bit." I whisper. "A little break is like a day or two Harry! At least a friendly call or a text would have been nice! Louis as been crying non stop! He goes into the bathroom almost every rehearsal and cries! Because of you!" he spits the last word at me.

Louis was here because of me, because I left him when he needed me and loved me. It was all my fault, I begin to cry letting all the guilt come out. I feel Liam's strong grip wrap around me, pulling me into his chest. "Shh Harry, I'm sorry for yelling, it's just we missed you." I sniffle and snuggle into his chest letting everything out. "I-I should have been a better friend, I-I just walked out on him with no goodbye and no explanation! It's all my fault he is here, that he took the pills." I sob into Liam's chest, soaking his white T-shirt. "Hey it's not your fault, don't blame yourself. He's alright now, he's okay, shh." Liam's coos to me, rocking us back and forth. Liam was really our daddy, he protected us and held us when need to be held, soothed us when we needed soothing and was always there for us, no matter what. "Liam, I love you mate." I whisper. "Love you to Harry, now lets go inside and I'm going to talk to the doctors, come on."

He puts his arm around my waist and we walk in together. "What happened?" I hear Niall whisper to Liam. I just walk straight over to Louis and plop down to the floor, next to his side. "Louis, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I should have told you sooner, should have showed up sooner or called. i'm sorry." I mutter to him. I can hear Liam talking with the nurses and doctors right now but I can feel someone staring at me. I turn and see Niall standing right behind me.

I cough "Hi Ni." Is all I could say. I look into his deep blue eyes and saw desperation, like he wanted to tell me something. Then he begins to cry and falls right next to my side. I grab him and pull him into my arms and kiss his forehead. "Niall why are you crying?" I ask worried. "B-Because I thought you left us forever and because of Louis and I missed you." He crys out. My heart drops at the sound of his voice, my heart breaking even more. "I would never leave you guys ever, I'm so sorry Ni." I whisper into his ear and hug him tighter.

"Niall, lets go down to the lobby and talk to Simon and get some food for you." Liam says. I look up and see Liam reaching out for Niall's hand and he shoots a small grin at me. "Come on guys, Simon is waiting for us!" Zayn yells from the hallway. "You coming Harry?" Liam asks me, holding Niall tight to his side. I shake my head and my eyes wander to Liam and Niall's entwined fingers. "Okay, we'll be back in a few." He smiles and him and Niall walk out, leaving me here alone with Louis. "Louis." I whisper and stand up to sit on the end of the bed.

My mind blows up with thoughts about what I was suppose to do. Did I love Louis? Was I gay? Did Louis love me? They all shouted out me, giving me a massive head ache. "Ugh, I don't know what to do." I mumble and glimpse back over to Louis. He was so beautiful, the moon light gleaming through the window hit is face perfectly, showing me all his gorgeous features. The moon outlined his jaw and cheek bones perfectly, his tan, marble-like skin stood out more than ever before. His eye lashes were perfectly curled and the right length, and the color was more of a deep brown like some of the highlights in his hair. I breathe in and runs my fingers through my hair.

I was deciding on the most important decision of my life. If i admitted to myself that I loved this man, then I would have to admit it to him. But would he love me back after what I did to him? Would he want to be my boyfriend? I sigh and look back at louis. I get up and grab the chair and scoot in so I'm face to face with him. "Okay Lou, even though your asleep, I'm going to tell you something, something I should have told you a long time ago." I take a deep breath knowing what I was about to say would change everything. "Lou." I whisper. "I love you."