Electricity (gwen stacy x reader)

Great Uncle Buck

"holy shit you just sucker punched that dude!" I said stepping back from the man on the ground. 

"Language, and it looks like you where too." Steve said gesturing to my closed fist. I looked down. thank god it isn't blue. 

"yeah well trust me him getting punched was the best way this interaction would have ended." I said adjusting my coat hoping he doesn't see the faint blue. 

"trust me I know how it would have ended, but let me tell you kid, if you want to be an Avenger you have to fight better than what just happened here, and Nat tells me your pretty good so whats up?" 

"I have alot on my mind." I said pushing past him. I wasn't in the mood for a talk. I know I should tell him about Charles, Max, my parents, Hydra, and the blue thing but I don't want to lose my cool and disappear through the wires again so it's better not to talk. 

"Like what kid?"

I Closed my eyes and tried to think of a way out of this conversation. Something came to mind that would start a conversation, but something I need to know, and it's worth the risk of turning blue. "Tell me about Bucky" 

20 minutes ago I was trying to think of a way to avoid talking to Steve, now I'm sitting in his apartment. Im sitting on his couch and he's in the kitchen. I can see him standing over the sink, gripping it. Talking about bucky must be hard for him. 

Steve sat down on the chair across from the couch. "so. Bucky. Why do you want to know about him." 

I tilted my head confused, "he's my great uncle, I thought you of all people would know this." 

"i didn't." he looked down at his hands which were fidgeting. "okay so your family, you want to know what happened to him right." i nodded "It's a long story kid, one I don't like to tell or talk about unless it brings me closer to finding him." Steve gulped and looked up at me. "Bucky didn't willingly kill for hyrda, he was brainwashed." 

My face became puzzled "what? how?"

"back in the war bucky was taken and experimented on. Hyrda was trying to recreate the super solider serum, and they tested it on bucky. when he fell off that train, he fell into a river, and it washed him with a missing arm up to a Hyrda base. They didn't want to waste their experiment so they took him, gave him a metal arm, and brainwashed him. Took his mind and threw it in a blender. I don't know how they did it, no one in shield does, but they made him kill for years." Steves voice was cut off by a lump in his throat. the pain he had on his face wasn't the kind of pain he would have shown if they were just friends. 

I looked away. I don't know how to deal with people when they're sad. "so he was never a murderer. Just a victim." Steve nodded. I looked down at the floor. We sat in silence for a few minutes but I could feel a buzz in my chest. Great Uncle Buck forced to kill for years. "steve?" he looked up at me "Did-Do you love him?"

Steve starred at me for a few moments. "yeah. yeah I do. I would do anything to get him back." He went back to starring at his hands. 

I would do anything for Gwen. Anything to protect her, and I know I'm going to have to protect her. But how can I when I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm going to hurt her, but I can't allow myself to. I have to do anything for her, and I will. We are not going to be like Steve and Bucky. Steve and Bucky. What if we are Steve and Bucky? what if I'm bucky? 

I stand straight up. The machine. Hydras weapon. I will never go willingly. they're going to brainwash me. I'm the next winter solider. I don't notice steve looking up at me in horror. 

"Y/N why are you blue?" he asks bewildered. I look down at my body and I'm glowing bright blue with what looks like dark blue veins running up and down my body. 

"Because steve I'm the next Bucky."