✔Summer Rain |Fruits Basket| HatsuHaru Sohma

27- Thoughts

  Haru padded down the hallway towards his room, sleep lagging his brain.  It wasn’t everyday his mind was plagued by thoughts of the zodiac curse, but on the nights it did it really hit him hard.  He kicked his door open, ignoring the lights completely as he stomped over to his bed in the dark.  He fell face first into his pillow, slamming his hands over his ears in an attempt to block the noises in his head out.

  The day had gone well for him, he hadn’t had a true dark thought once.  Not even while searching and worrying for Kisa’s well being.  But now was very different.  Dark thought after dark thought flooded his head, and he sighed, rolling over to stare at the ceiling.  

  The thoughts in his head were mostly the things he thought about on his dark days, about how much he hated Akito and hated his family’s curse, thinking about Rin, but now there were some new thoughts that sat at the forefront of his head.

  He picked up his phone, his finger hovering over the call button on Mei’s number.  With a huff, he threw his phone hard against the wall, glaring at it like it was the devil itself.  All of his thoughts centered on her tonight, and he didn’t like it.  

  He really enjoyed spending time with her today, it felt like they had gotten to a point in their friendship where they could just hang out and banter without any real worry.  Even when she was bright eyed and telling him about the stars, he’d normally be bothered by the sheer idea of someone telling him anything about them.  He thought back to that night at Hatori’s, with her curled up in his arms so innocently.  Unaware of Akito’s looming presence. 

  No matter what he tried, he could never keep the people he cared about safe from the one who considered themselves god.  

  He’d tried to protect Rin- god how he’d tried.  Every move they made together was careful, calculated.  But Akito still found out.  Haru was glad that at least Mei wouldn’t be subjected to the same torture Rin had to go through, if it came to that.  

  Akito had no use for an outsider, so- neither should he.  Those was the rules Haru was subjected to when he was born as the ox.  As long as there was Akito, Haru had no need for any other source of ‘love’ in his life.

  He growled under his breath, picturing the evil, grinning face of the Head.  “That fucking bastard-”  He muttered, closing his eyes.  “Piece of shit thinks they can control my life-”  There was no real force behind his statement, there was nothing he could do about his situation, and he knew that there wouldn’t be for a while, if ever.  

  With an angry grunt, he stood back up, making his way over to where he had thrown his phone against the wall.  The screen was cracked, and his shoulders slumped heavily as he shoved it into his pocket.  “Damn it.”  He whispered, stumbling back over to his bed and falling into it, curling up into himself.

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  I tiptoed down the stairs, adjusting my uniform tie as I kept an eye out for mom.  Her back was to me, her eyes trained on the television as I made my way through the living room, holding my breath in part to keep her attention off of me.

  “Headed off to school?”  She asked suddenly, turning away from the tv to look up and down at my uniform.  

  I nodded, heading towards the kitchen to search the fridge for some breakfast.  “In a few minutes.”

“What did you do at Makato-san’s the other day?”  She questioned, turning the volume on the television down as I poured myself a glass of water.

  “Uh-”  I gripped the glass a bit tighter than I meant to, sloshing some of the water onto my hand as it shook.  “Studied.  For some upcoming placement tests?”

  “Is that a question or a statement?”  She raised an eyebrow, her lips pursed and her eyes pointed.  “I was just wondering, because when I called him, he told me you were sleeping.”

  “Yeah.”  I nodded shortly, glancing away from her stare.  “I just- felt really sleepy after school on wednesday.  So we studied for a bit and then he let me sleep.”

  “Don’t let your studies fall behind, sleep or no sleep.”  She spoke curtly, standing up.  “I’m heading to work.  Try not to bother me today?”
 
 I stared at the back of her suit jacket, chewing on my lip nervously.  “Alright.  Have a nice day Mom.”

  “Thank you.”  She nodded with a ghost of a smile and grabbed her purse, heading out the front door.

  When the door shut, I slumped against the counter with a shaky breath.  As I did, I accidently knocked the glass from my hand, shattering it on the floor.

  “God damn it.”  I ran a hand through my hair, grabbing the broom from beside the stove.  I bent down, sweeping the glass shards into my hand with a sigh.  “So much for keeping calm-”  I huffed, dumping the shards into the trash.

  One of the piece of glass slipped against my hand, nicking my palm slightly.  I bit back a hiss at the angry red skin blooming around the cut, heading towards the bathroom to clean it up some before school.  Before I could reach the bathroom, the clock chimed, announcing it was time for me to head off to school.  I ignored the stinging feeling that was blooming in the cut and grabbed my things, racing off to school before I was late.
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Word Count: 957 Words

Uh hi- bit of a shorter chapter, sorry about that...  I've been dealing with some long term medical issues and trying to get a diagnoses has been a bitch, so I've been trying to write whenever possible :)  I'll have another chapter out at some point to make up for being gone for a while <3  also, the format might be a bit off, I got a new phone and I'm still trying to figure out how to make it look like my old one lolol 😅