I'll be yours and you'll be mine. <3 (Sean Diaz x Finn McNamara)

Is this a rumor or the truth? | Chapter 4

Hey dear readers of my story, I don't know what to say but I'm sorry for not writing a part for that long. I know it's been months, so I understand if I lost all my readers lmao. I can only try to explain myself and tell you that I had lots of struggles the past months with school, my mental health and family problems. I turned 18 in July, that made me stress myself a lot too. I'm back now and I hope to get some of you back again. I hope my story still will be good and if I can change something, just tell me. I can't promise to update regularly (sometimes it will take weeks) but I'll try my best.
Have fun reading it.
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3rd perspective:
After the party Sean went to sleep. The weekend passed quickly because Sean did a lot with his family. For some reason he doesn't know he had to think about Finn the whole weekend, but he's still pretty sure he doesn't like him.
It's Monday. Sean gets up for school and gets ready and as always he goes to school with Lyla. He's not feeling well all morning, because he had a nightmare. He always had nightmares since the moment his mental health was getting worse and worse. Just as they arrive at the school yard, all students receive a message on their phone. Sean gets anxious because it reminds him of last school year. Back then, some people anonymously spread rumors about people from school. Sean notices how everyone is looking at their handys. Lyla too. Suddenly Lyla lets her phone fall on the ground and looks at Sean in shock. "What's wrong?" he asks her. He has a bad feeling.

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⚠️TW: Suicide!!!⚠️
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Sean's p.o.v.:
"Sean, please don't look at your phone. Please." she whispers. She looks like she is about to cry. I look at my phone. I have to know what's wrong. I look at it. I notice how tears collect in my eyes while I was standing there shocked. I feel so much but at the same time nothing at all. I read the message: "So y'all already knew that Sean Diaz was in a mental hospital, right? But did y'all know the real reason beside his mental health problems? Lovely Sean tried to kill himself. Yeah, you heard right. Isn't that some dramatic news to announce that we are back again. ;)" I feel so helpless again like I did back then. Only my family, Lyla and my class teacher knew what I did that night. Until now. I notice how everyone starts to stare at me. They all stare at me like they feel even more sorry for me than before. I realize how Finn looks at me in shock. I hear how Lyla starts to cry. All the memories come up again. The night. Last school year. Everything. Not again. Why me?! I run away because I feel like I'm panicking. I run into the school building, to the boy's bathroom. I lock myself in a cabin and start crying. Why did I come back?! I should have listened to my father. I'm not ready for this. So many thoughts are on my mind, but at the same time nothing at all. I realize that I'm shaking. I press my hands into my face. I can't do that anymore.

Finn's p.o.v.:
Cass, Han and I go straight to Lyla who's still crying. "Lyla, dumb question but are you okay?" Han asks. Cass hugs Lyla. "I worry more about Sean now. He never wanted anyone from school to find out what he did because everyone already feel sorry for him because he was in a mental hospital. He doesn't even want to talk to me about it. Never again since the night it happened. And some assholes are taking the right to post this?!" She tries to scream, but she cries so hard that it's difficult for her to get the words out. "Can Someone please look for Sean?" She asks then. I still see tears running down her face and you can see how worried she is written all over her face. "Yeah, I can go. Han and Cass stay with you." I say. "Maybe he is in the boy's bathroom. It always was his place to calm down when something at school happened." she says and I go into the school building to find him. I kinda already knew that something is wrong because I saw his arm yesterday. But what the hell? He tried to kill himself? Why? And Is that why he is like that all the time? So many questions go through my mind now. I arrive in the boy's bathroom. "Sean?" I call his name multiple times. "Go away please." he tries to say while crying. "No. Where are you? In which cabin? Please Sean. I don't want to annoy you now." I speak to him. "Finn, go away. Please." This is his only answer. "Lyla is worried about you and sent me to look after you." Sure, I'm worried about him too, but I won't tell him now. I don't want him to think that I pity him too. I hear a door open and Sean comes out. His eyes are completely red from all the crying. He just stares at me. I don't know what to say. You can see how done he is with the whole word so I did the only right thing to do right now. I hug him as hard as I can and he hugs me back. I didn't except him to hug me back.