I'll be yours and you'll be mine. <3 (Sean Diaz x Finn McNamara)

"Maybe you are not that bad.." | Chapter 5

Sean's P.O.V:

I still look at him annoyed and waiting for him to answer my question. He smirks nervously "First of all, hello to you too Sweetie. I just wanted to look for you and see that you are okay because you left", he then says while looking at me. A little smile leaves my lips. "Well, you did now, so you can leave again, don't you?", I answer bothered. "Oh come on Sean since I'm already here we can spend time together." I glance at him. My eyes are filled with panic because I just remembered what I did not even five minutes ago. I shake my head. I can feel my dad walking up behind me. "Everything alright you two?", he asks nicely. "Yes, he just wanted to ask if I feel any better", I answer my dad. "Oh how nice of you. I didn't catch your name?", my dad says. "Oh right, I'm Finn", the boy with the beautiful blue eyes introduces himself. "I'm Esteban. You want to come in? I think having a friend around wouldn't be bad for Sean right now." Finn nods. I just shake my head but let him in. I can feel how every inch of my body is pounding and how the adrenaline is rushing through my blood. I try my best not to show it but I'm fucking terrified. What if they will see? Runs through my mind again and again.

Daniel runs to both of us. "A new friend?", he asks curiously. "More like a classmate", I answer him with an uncomfortable smile. "I'm Finn and who are you little boy?", Finn gently asks and looks at my little brother. "I'm Daniel", he answers him direclty and smiles at him. "Cool name dude!", Finn compliments him. "Thank you, your name is cool too", Daniel compliments him back. "Okay, okay. Let's go to my room", I interrupt their conversation and Finn nods. Mabye he could feel that something is off. "I thought we could play together", Daniel pouts. "Maybe later enano, I need to talk to Finn and rest", I explain. Daniel just nods. I take Finn by the hand and go to my room with him. Normally I wouldn't touch him and I don't know why I decided to take his hand in the first place.

The moment we enter my room I let go of his hand and he sits down on my bed, so do I. "You sure you are okay? You look like you got caught or something", he breaks the silence. "Yes I'm fine", I stutter a little because I feel exposed by his words. "If you say so", he answers and lies down on my bed. I watch him doing this. "I hope you know I just let you stay because my dad thought it is a good idea", I look at him while saying it. He just nods. "Thanks to your dad then. I think I always come here so your dad gets you to spend time with me", he jokes. I laugh a little. "You really are an idiot", I answer him. He looks at me with a played shocked impression. "You're laughing at my joke?! And not being mean to me?! Careful here Sean, you might fall for me", Finn teases. I can feel my face heat up and I just smile while shaking my head. I'm not falling for him, I tell myself in my thoughts. "Maybe you'll fall for me first playboy", I tease him back and he just nods. "Maybe I am", he whispers casually and looks at my wall. He looks perfect. Every inch of his face is beautiful. His blue eyes, his nose, his lips. Damn he really has pretty lips tho and his piercing and tattoos are matching his face perfectly. I never saw someone as beautiful as him and Jenn is really pretty. I get lost in my thoughts about Finn while looking at him. Trying to picture every feature of his face in my head.

"Sweetheart, go on looking at me like that and I might think you want to kiss me", he teases me and I start to blush. "Fuck off! What you want to do now anyways?" I try to change the topic. Of course I hope that he don't see my cheeks turning red. Normally I never blush, I don't know what he does to me. Honestly I never thought about liking boys. I mean I always thought some boys are really attractive but I only really liked girls. "Let's watch a movie", he says and now he's looking at me. "You like horror movies?", I ask him. "I love horror movies!", he answers my question with enthuasiasm. "Me too! What's your favorite horror movie?", I ask him now. "I love Scream. The first one, it's the best", he explains. "Maybe we have more in common then I thought because I have the same opinion", I say surprised. "Let's watch it then!", he suggests. I get up from my bed to get my laptop. I put it on my drawer in front of my bed. I start the film. I can feel Finn staring at me while doing all this. I like the thought of him watching me doing stuff. I never feel comfortable when people are looking at me but with him it is different.

I'm laying down in my bed now too. A little space is only left between us. I smirk at him for a second before watching the movie. Sometimes while watching the movie I look at him. I just couldn't help it and sometimes he does the same. I realize how tired I am. I haven't slept much and well for a long time. I can't remember the last time when I did sleep well. Without nightmares. Without randomly waking up at night. I think Finn somehow notices that I'm tired because while watching the movie he pulls me into his arms and I just let him and I really have to admit I haven't felt anything better then this in a long time. I can feel the warmth of his body and it makes me even more tired. "You can sleep, it's okay", he whispers gently in my ear. He covers us both with my blanket. "You know? Maybe you're not that bad.." I mumble half asleep.

I can feel my heart beating calmly. How my breathing is slow and regular. How my eyes slowly close and I notice a feeling that I've been missing for a long time: safety.
My life is so stressful that I forgot what it's like to calm down completely and feel comfortable around someone who isn't my family or my best friend Lyla.

Suddenly I fell asleep...

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