I burrowed deeper into my bed, tears still staining my cheeks. I couldn't believe I was being such a baby about this. I had dated plenty of guys who ended up being total self absorbed asses. Why was it that leaving Chris hurt so bad then?
I had sat here for a whole day, only getting up to go to the bathroom. My roommate had practically forced me to eat.
"C'mon, Parker, it's a new day. Forget about that dumb ass. You are a queen. You know you don't need no man, so vibe with it!" My roommate, Jolie, smiled, pushing me lightly.
I glared at her, "No."
"No?"
"No. I don't want to get up and 'live the day to it's fullest'. I want to pout and wish Chris was better," I mumbled.
Jolie sighed, "Okay I give up. You guys were my total power couple. You know with the whole 'defying the parental units' thing. But I guess they just beat you down. No one can withstand the wicked parents of the west."
"They live east of here," I grumbled.
"What?" Jolie peered at me, confused.
"They live east of here. Not west," I said louder.
"Oh my gosh," Jolie laughed. I didn't think this was a laughing matter what's so ever.
"Well I would love to stay and pout with you, but I have somewhere to be. I'll be back. You watch tv and eat junk food. I guess we all do deserve one day to pout before braving the world again," Jolie said.
I rolled my eyes and grabbed for the tv remote.
"That's my bestie. Okay bye!" Jolie raced from the room.
I turned on the tv and the dvd that Jolie had been watching was still in. The credits for "To All the Boys I've Loved Before" rolled. I groaned.
I didn't want romance movies!
I flopped down farther in my bed, imagining I was sinking into an endless abyss before falling asleep.
I awoke a few hours later. It was dark out and Jolie was shuffling around.
"Hey look who's awake," Jolie smiled.
"This bitch," I grumbled.
"Oh there's that fire I've been waiting for a whole twenty four hours to come back," Jolie chuckled.
"Eh?" I raised an eyebrow, "Where were you anyway?"
"Kicking someone's b-u-t-t. As per the usual," Jolie said.
"Who pissed you off this time?" I asked.
"Some douche. He's in our grade. He was a jerk," She explained.
"Oh really?"
"Yup," Jolie nodded.
Chris pov
I mean I had met Jolie before, but never had I seen her angry. That girl busted my door down basically. She was in a rage. Yelling at me. She punched me at one point. It was an adventure.
All the while, I sat like a coward, huddling away from the scary best friend.
"The audacity. What you did was selfish and melodramatic. But it was also wrong!" Jolie yelled. I was too scared to correct her words.
"I know," I said instead and hung my head.
"Oh no. Oh no, sir! You don not get to be all pouty. My best friend gets to be pouty. You-you need to act like a man. Man-up! Go apologize! Fix things! I will not have my otp be destroyed! Otherwise I will forever hate you!" With that, Jolie had stomped out of the room.
She was right wasn't she. I did need to fix this shit I had gotten myself into.
Tomorrow. Tomorrow was Sunday. I would talk to her then.
But what would I say?
I would apologize, obviously. I would beg for her to forgive me. I had been a total jerk. A total coward.
I would remind her she was perfect. I would tell her that I didn't deserve her, which I don't, but I would hope she would understand that I love her.
I love her.
I'm a wreck without her.
I felt myself start to cry.
No don't cry. Man up. Go get your girl back.
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Parker's pov
The new day came faster then I wanted.
Jolie pulled me from my bed. She threw jeans at me and a t-shirt.
"Put the clothes on. We're getting out of this room," She commanded.
I sighed, but crawled out of my bed.
"But before you put those clothes on, shower," Jolie said, giving me a once over.
"Yeah okay," I nodded.
After an hour of procrastinating leaving the room, I was ready.
Jolie grabbed me by the wrist and pulled me down the hall of the dorm.
"Okay so let's go to the cafe, and then the park for some nice people watching," Jolie said.
"Okay fine," I mumbled.
"Chin up, woman," Jolie nudged me.
The sun was bright outside, but it was still comfortable weather.
The cafe was a five minute walk and we grabbed ourselves coffees. After, we sat down on a bench at the campus park.
I looked up from a squirrel running by our feet to see Chris walking up to us.
"Code boy," I grumbled.
"Oh good he actually came. I'll be right back. You stay right here," Jolie smiled. I expected her to get up and walk toward Chris and probably kick his ass, because she loved doing that to jerks; but instead, she walked in the opposite direction.
"Hey, Parker. Can I sit here?" Chris asked when he reached my bench.
"I don't know. Does the bench want you to?" I said, not looking at him.
"Look," He said when he sat down, "I was a dick, I know. I-I am disgusted by myself. I should have said something sooner before my parents could trample you like that. I'm so sorry. I can't express how sorry I am and the truth is; I don't deserve you Parker. You're amazing. You're so calm and smart and incredible. Me? I'm a mess. I literally am failing at life. But Parker, I love you. I can't stand seeing you mad or sad. Or-I don't know-broken. I want to fix this. Please, if there was anything-anything I could do, please tell me." He looked at me, his eyes full of desperation.
"You are a dick," I started.
"Yeah I know-"
"Don't cut me off. The lady is speaking. Very rude," I glared, "You're selfish. You're a dumb ass. You're a coward. And it actually sucks that I love you. It sucks that I ever fell for you and your frat boy wannabe looks. It sucks. All of it. And it sucks that I want to forgive you. That I want you in my life so bad. But I have to. I just have to forgive you because we all make mistakes. None of us are perfect, no matter how much we wish we were. I love you, Chris. And I think you can see that," I took his hand and looked deeply at him.
"So I forgive you," I continued.
"Really?" He asked. I assume he thought getting me back would be a lot harder. Lucky for him I am currently love sick.
"Well that is-that's amazing," He smiled, laughing.
"Yeah but don't blow it. Think of this as a second, and last chance," I warned.
"Yes of course. Of course," Chris nodded enthusiastically.
"Good. Now kiss me," I demanded.
"Of course, M'lady," Chris smiled.
Oh thank every star I was here with him. That I still had him. That I loved him.
