Two Captains (AOT LevixOC)

Chapter 5

Jamie’s POV

            We’re at headquarters to prepare for the upcoming expedition. We’re leaving the safety of the walls to go to the Shiganshina district, and since receiving word of Erwin’s suspicions I’ve become extremely nervous about this.

            “Jamie, it’s dinner time,” Petra says interrupting my thoughts.

            “Oh, alright,” I say getting up and heading to the Mess Hall with Petra.

            How? Just how does she eat so much? She’s practically inhaling her food. I know she’s a new cadet, since I haven’t seen her around headquarters before.

            “Eren,” I say calling him over.

            “Yes?” Eren asks walking over to me.

            “Do you know her?” I ask pointing to the girl.

            “Yes, that’s Sasha Braus. She’s one of my classmates,” Eren explains. “Why?” he asks afterwards.

            “How can she eat so much? Like where does she put it all?” I ask.

            “I don’t know. On the first day of training             she got in trouble for stealing a potato and eating it during the opening ceremony.”

            “Well we’ll have to keep the kitchen locked up then, won’t we?” I joke. Eren chuckles while is stand up to leave. When I turn to leave I just mange to not bump into Levi, which, if I did, would have been bad since he is carrying hot soup.

            “Watch it Jamie,” Levi says.

            “Same to you Levi,” I say walking away. I put my dishes in the dirty pile and head up to my room, where another sleepless night was awaiting me.

~~~~(I’m skipping the expedition because I’m lazy)~~~~

            I should be used to the constant pain of death. It happens every time, without fail, so why does it still hurt? It hasn’t been this bad in a long time. I’ve lost all my friends in one day, and now I don’t know how to function. I feel empty again. Things like eating and sleeping don’t seem important anymore. It’s unbearable, and when I did try to sleep the nightmares only got worse. I can’t shake the image of their bodies, and it’s driving me mad. I take a shaky breath in as I silently cry, ignoring the burning sensation in my right eye. How long have I been in my room? I don’t even know, I just don’t want to face the world yet.

Levi’s P.O.V

            I understand that Jamie’s upset, but she’s locked herself in her room two days ago. I’m worried about her; I’ve never seen her so upset over death before. The last thing I need is her dying on me too. It’s time for her to come out there, and if she won’t do it herself, I’ll make her. I knock on her door.

“Jamie, open the door. It’s been two days,” I say. No response answers me, so I try again. “Jamie, you need to open the door or I’ll break the door down,” I say, once again receiving no response. Alright, if that’s how it is, I’m going to get her out of there one way or the other.

It only took a couple of hits for the door to open, and I thought I was prepared for any scene behind the door, but I wasn’t. I wasn’t ready to see Jamie, someone so strong, so disheveled. Jamie is just sitting on her bed, her knees pressed against her chest and arms wrapped around her legs, crying. In one hand she’s holding the small grey cloth she occasionally wears around her neck. Her hair hangs in her face and the only sound coming from her is small sniffles. She looks over at me when I enter the room, but doesn’t say anything.