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Chapter 21: Remebering Has Never Been so Painful

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Jackie's p.o.v.

I ran after Dean. He was just only speed walking but still looked like running.

"Dean.." I said catching up to him.

"What." he said not looking at me.

His voice was weak, like if he was crying at the moment.

"What do you mean by he not remembering you.." I said as I stopped moving.

He stopped walking and stayed silent for a moment.

"By what I mean that she forgot me, I mean that she doesn't know who I am. to be exact, she lost her whole memory." he said turning his face around slightly.

"But.. why?" I said as my eyes welled up a bit.

"She was running. A car ran into her. It damaged her brain." He said as I saw his tears streaming down his face.

"Dean.. it's going to be okay." I said hugging him tightly.

Surprisingly enough, he hugged back, tighter. Just me hearing Dean cry was awful. Soon enough I was crying with him, wetting his leather jacket. He finally let the hug loose.

"I think I should go." he said wiping his tears off.

"Dean, you don't have to go alone." I said as also wiped my tears off.

"It's okay. you don't have to-"

"But I want to." I said.

I knew I couldn't leave him alone. especially with what's going on with Ana.

"Okay, if you insist." he said looking at the ground, but then heading for his car.

I followed without saying a single word. I knew it wasn't the time for me to be saying stupid things. We drove to his apartment about four minutes later.

"There's a bed over there." he said as he pointed at the bed.

"I'll sleep on the couch." he said leaning on the couch as he rested his head in his hands.

"Dean, I know this might not be the time, but why do you care so much about Ana?" I said already knowing it was a mistake.

He stayed silent. I knew I shouldn't of said anything. I headed to the bed, but then I heard him talking.

"Well maybe it's because she's the only person that ever actually cared about me." he said starring at the ground.

"I've been with girls once in a while. When I met Ana I just thought she was just another girl to be with, but it was different. She wasn't like everybody else. It's not even 3 weeks since we've met, but I love her.. so much it hurts." he said finally bursting in tears.

I sat down next to him and hugged him, and soon stayed crying with him.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't of asked you that-"

"No it's okay." he said wiping his tears off.

"To be honest, life doesn't really matter without love." he said without any tears.

"What if.. I was the one to fill in that empty spot in your heart?" I said.

What did I just say. I didn't even think about it. No what the heck is wrong with me.

"No, I'm sorry I'm really stupi-

I was cut off. Not by words, but by a kiss. A kiss, from Dean. Dean was kissing me. I was trying to figure it out, by putting all the pieces together. I knew this was wrong. Ana can still get her memory back, but I can't stop it. Ana can get her memory back right now without her knowing that I'm in her boyfriends house, kissing him.

"Dean.. this isnt.. right.." I murmured between his kisses.

This isn't Dean. This isn't the Dean I know. He's not thinking straight. I'm doing the worst thing a friend can do. I was about to break the kiss, but it was too late.

Ana's p.o.v.

*wakes up*

-heavy breathing-

Where am I? Why does my head hurt, why am I at a hospital, where's.. Dean?