the secrets that changed me

38: gone

waking up to the sun hitting my eyes I roll over and see jin Oppa enter my room with a box in his hand...

jin- get up now y/n... we have to be there soon...

y/n- okay, um how is Taehyung...

I said as I sat up...

jin- he is getting ready and so are the others...

he left without a smile or anything the house was quiet and the sky outside was gray...

I got up and look inside the box he had brought in and laid on the bed, it was a black dress.

Quickly going in and coming out in seconds from the bathroom I was ready...

walking out of my room and into his the whole place felt cold, not in temperature but just cold...

standing in front of the mirror he stood still in his perfect black suit, walking up behind him past his shoulder is could see his pale face, swollen eyes, and emotionless lips.

he looked at me through the mirror with eyes of pain, which sent shivers through me, they looked almost cold and ruthless. but I knew he was trying to hold it in, the cries and sadness he didn't want me to see.

Taehyung turns and I take a step forward taking his hands in mine.

y/n- It's okay you don't have to hide it...

tears fill our eyes as he hugs me barring his face in my neck...

baby sniffs escape and I wrap my arms around him tightly...

y/n- shhh it's okay...

.

he breaks the hug and looks at me right into my eyes...

Tae- thank you...

I force a smile as I wipe his tears for him... before my hand falls down he grabs it and comes close...

tae- You know you don't have to hide it too...

I close my eyes as tears roll down my cheeks, he steps closer and plants a kiss on my forehead before taking me into his arms, hiding in his chest I sob as old memories flood back...

tae- I know you loved him once, It's okay you don't have to pretend strong for me...

y/n- I am sorry (sniffs) I tried...

tae- it's okay, I love you...

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we all are in the car now headed towards the memorial place, all the guys are in black suits and everyone is quiet.

the silence gets interrupted when jin's phone rings...

jin- hello...

he answers in a low voice...

jin- we will be there in a few minutes.

he looks at me and then out the window...

jin- yeah she is fine, did Mrs. Kim come too...

tae jolts as he looks at jin...

jin- okay bye...

jin hangs up the phone and turns to face us...

jin- mom and our family friend are already there...

tae- who is your family friend?

jin- she is one of my mom's old friends...

tae- oh

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we arrive at the cemetery as I hold taehyung's hand while walking in... he holds my hand tight as we get closer to where two ladies are standing facing the coffin in front of the paster...