Hello author here I would like say some things.
1.) If you kindly stop commenting update every chapter. I like responding to comments. I know i don't do it a lot but i really do like it and it's the fun out of when all i see is "update pls". the more i see update i'm focused on giving you guys something to read hence the minute long chapters.
2.) Not to sound like my la/english teachers but how about you comment me what you like, tell me what you hate, go to the request chapter and comment what you hate instead of telling me you love me you story. just vote for it if you love. it a win-win
3.) I'm not into this story. let me explain. i have about have a notebook full of characters and their stories plot. Peyton is meant to help me ease is into writing i want to do. you know the story's that capture you with the words. the ones that make you crackle for 2 minutes straight and make your eyes gloss. i currently have 12 stories in my drafts and God Is A Women that i want to progress with. so i'll be more focused on those.
4.) I'm dealing with my mental health. a couple weeks ago my mom yelled at me about my grades which stresses her out. she has enough problems with the fact that we have to move in May possibly into my grandmas house, The fact that her coworkers are lazy, and my brothers father is not cooperating with my mom about my brother. for example not letting my mom get dom(my brother) on her days off, barley doing what the court order him and lying about dom seeing a therapist. i have no clue what that's about but from the context i gathered yesterday while waiting for our pizza it was not about the whole custody battle and it's aftermath. anyway my mom take a step too far and brought her love life into the one—sided argument(it's impossible to defend myself because she manipulates what i say so i just resorted to agreeing with everything she says and trying not to cry because one of those people that cry over the stupidest things or when their getting yelled at) and she said and i quote "I'll never be happy and it because of you.". At first my mind was like "well it's your fault you didn't wrap my dads willy when you where 15" and "then why didn't you abort me" then it drifted to the fact that she right. i mean out of everything thing i'm causing her the most stresses, most of our conversation arguments, she called me selfish multiple times which she is again right about, she calls me a liar which three for three she is right about(lying is my defense mechanism), no one one my side, i barley have any real friends, i'm just FUCKING ALONE AND I FUCKING TIRED OF ALL IT. IM TIRED WITH BEING A DISAPPOINTMENT.IM TIRED OF BEING ALONE. IM TIRED OF PEOPLE LIKE THAT FAKE ME THAT TRYS TO FIT IN AND LOSES PEOPLE WHEN I SHOW THEM REAL ME.I HATE IT. I HATE PEOPLE. I HATE MAJORITY OF FAMILY. I HATE THAT THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT TRULY GET ME ARE STRANGE ON THE INTERNET THOUSAND OF MILES AWAY AND PROBABLY DONT WANT TO LISTEN TO A 13 YEAR OLD RANT. I HATE THE FACT I WANT TO SCREAM. I HATE THAT I PROCRASTINATE. I HATE THAT I WANT TO KILL MYSELF BUT CANT BECAUSE I DONT WANT GO YET.
so i'm dealing with that. this is was the closest i can get to screaming so sorry. bye
Update on mental health
A/N 04.12.21
I was doing great today. Till my Mom texted me unacceptable with my grades next to it.I know it's bad. I heard my grandma talking about it to her husband. I didn't open the text. Cause if i do then i have a to respond. And i don't know what to say. So it unopened. and my opinion are
1) Leave her delivered. which means i get yelled at tomorrow.
2). Leave her on delivered and ignore her which means she comes to my grandmas ready to kill me
3). read and don't answer which means i'll get yelled at
4). answer and get yelled at
Also i think i might have ADHD. I mean i seen video of people talking about it and i react similarly to it. And my grandmas husband has it and he see some of it. god this would
be so much easier if you could hear me. Also why can't i stop crying. like i really want to stop but i can't.
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Peyton | DISCONTINUED
Fanfiction18 years ago Peyton Wilde was the girlfriend of 8 months to Klaus Mikaelson and the best friend of Hayley Marshall. After leaving a dinner early to help Caroline she comes home to see Klaus and Hayley in bed together. After breaking up with Klaus Pe...
