I'm Tired (Brave girls series#2)

IT35

Hate

My weekend last with full of dismay and trust issue. After I got home. Jules came to our house.

Hindi na ako nagulat dahil after his last messaged, he sent me dozen of message again. And I didn't reply.

I stay on my room. Bumaba lang ako ng tinawag ako ni Papo. Which is to see Jules, down stair awaiting for me.

Nagdalawang isip pa ako kung haharapin ko siya o hindi. Hindi ko pa naman alam kung paano siya haharapin ng hindi ako nahahalata. Cause in between him and Liam. Jules know who am I. Where buddies eversince childhood days.

Hay! bahala na.

Hinarap ko siya ngunit may ilang na nararamdaman. At pansin niya iyon. Buti na lang sa ibang bagay ang naisip niya hindi doon.

"Hey," he approached. I doesn't say anything back. I just seat beside him. He watch me until I settle down. "I just want you to know," he started. "Na we didn't kiss that night. I dunno why there's photos roaming around. Mukhang balak ka talagang sirain."

"I know." I signed and look away from his sight. "I clearly remember it." I lean back to rest my body. And glance at him. I give him a weak smile. "All I worried about it. How this news will be torn down? For sure ako na naman ang usap usapan sa school." I can't stand of all this. I just want to study and not be the center of attention.

"I dunno." He ran his finger through his hair and sign, "maybe we can ask help for the people who have knowledge about it."

Hindi lang ako maging siya sabit dito. Kainis sino ba kasi iyon? What I'm done to suffer
from this shit?

I want a peaceful life but how? Puro na lang gulo?

"Gagawa ako ng paraan. Just don't let people belittle you. Hay! ngayon pang pa-midterm na!"

He frustrated comb his hair and stand up. He put his both hand on his waist. Saka humarap sa akin.

"Let just focus on our studies," he advised. "People are so annoying!"

Ano pa nga bang magagawa ko. Pumasok ako doon para mag aral hindi makipag away.

Its already tuesday. And just like Jules told me. I focus on my study kahit pa tuwing dumadaan ako. Para akong artista kung pagbulungan.

I put my earphone and shuffle my playlist para hindi sila marinig. Puro sila satsat.

Hindi na ako tumambay doon sa kainan na pinag kakainan ko. Kailangan ko na ng bagong pwesto. Total maraming puno dito. Maghahanap na lang ako ng magandang pwesto.

"Ahhh— peace!"

I found right place to hang on. Kahit mag isa basta tahimik okay lang. Being alone is not being sad, its being free from all worries around you.

Not all alone are loner. Something being alone is what you need.

Kisa naman nasa grupo ka pero hindi mo ramdam na kasama ka. Your trying to fit not knowing it almost out of space.

Trying to fit into other groups is not what you need to do. Being yourself and finding your soul in a most. Peace and healthy environment is you need to find. Sa panahon ngayon mahirap ng mahanap iyon.