sooyoung:
my head has been spinning all week.
sanha has been studying with chaeyoung all week
and i don't exactly mind
but he hasn't even talked to me since he's so "busy"
and i know that she likes him.
and it's fine
he probably likes her too...
but you know, i'm supposed to be happy right?
his happiness always makes me happy
so....
"hey"
i felt a hand tap my shoulder.
i looked up and met eyes with sanha
"hi"
"are you okay?"
"eh, yeah i guess so why?"
"you just seem off, like if you don't wanna talk to me"
"really sanha? it's like you've been avoiding me all week, you've been studying with chaeyoung you didn't even text me, and i get that you're studying which is good, but i'm your bestfriend, you can atleast send me a little text and not ignore me the whole week"
"i- sooy, i didn't meant to make it seem that way"
"d-do you like her?"
i said as i felt my eyes getting watery.
ugh i need to pull myself together.
"are you okay? it looks like you're gonna cry"
"you haven't answered my question"
"sooy i- i have to go, she's calling me for our study session"
he said as he looked at his phone
is he serious right now
"are you blind?"
i said as tears started falling down my face.
he widened his eyes and started getting closer to me.
"just go"
i said as i pushed his hand away
"sooyoung i'm sorry"
"you don't even know what you're sorry for, you're just too blind to notice sanha, to notice that i- i l-"
"whatever bye"
i walked away as tears were streaming down my face like a waterfall
what is wrong with me
so what?
so what if he like her?
i can like someone else too right?
sanha was just a crush...
