Onism

Chapter Six- Umbridge

!TW! Anxiety Attacks !TW!

"Come on Ell , you must have a date already?" Pansy and me were on our way to the last last on the day DADA. "Listen , I'd prefer to go with the boys and you , that's what we always do." I laughed. "The ball is in three days and you haven't even got a dress!" I do have a dress it just hasn't arrived yet. I scoffed as we entered DADA. "Who the actual fuck is that." Pansy said as we stood looking at an old woman who is covered in pink.

"Hello class. Take your seats." Me and pansy walked over to our desk at the back next to Draco and Enzo , not taking our eyes off this teacher. "Who is she" i whispered to Lorenzo.  "That's Professor Umbridge. Apparently she's major strict and gives detentions 24/7" I laughed "She looks like a fire work display." 

"Is there a problem?" Umbridge asked in her mousy voice looking directly at me and Lorenzo. "Nope." i replied. "Good, as if there is any more disruption you will find yourself in detention with me tonight , do i make myself clear?" I nodded. What the fuck.

"Oi Ells, pass this to Lorenzo will you?" Draco tossed a peace of paper across to me and just as i was about to give it to Lorenzo- "he hem" Fuck. "Yes Professor." I looked up at her in front of me. "Passing notes now are we? Give that to me please." She held out her wrinkly little hand. Even looking at her makes me want heave. "No professor i-"

"Enough! Give it to me." i slowly gave her the note and she unfolded it in front of me as i shot a look at Draco. "I shall read this in front of the class and you will receive detention tonight." She walked her stubby little fucking legs to the front of the classroom and read the note allowed.

"This Bi*** looks like a Toad , i guess the rumors were right." My mouth fell open and I looked at Draco who had pressed his mouth into a thin line to stop from laughing. I smiled and made eye-contact with Draco and Enzo and we burst out laughing with Pansy too. 

"WHAT GIVES YOU THE RIGHT TO LAUGH? DETENTION TONIGHT ALL OF YOU." Umbridge shouted in a squeaky voice. "Oh but professor...you make it so hard not to." I smiled innocently Matteo and Tom turned around and smirked at us and shook their heads. Oh fucking hell what have we done. Snape is going to kill us.

"What is your name girl?" Umbridge called from the front. "Arabella Jones." I stared at her , waiting for a response. "Well...Miss Jones. With an attitude like yours I'd be surprised if anybody loved you at all. Your a pathetic young lady. Everybody has to grow up one day...I'd suggest you'd do it now. Your parents should be disappointed." 

"In that case, I hope I never grow up at all." I said bluntly staring at my hands. Everybody was silent and I could tell they were staring at me. Suddenly , within each second , my mind became more aware of what she had just said , more aware of the people around me. I looked around and it seemed as though everybody was closing on me. My breaths became more rapid , my vision went numb.I stood up for some reason , i had no idea what was happening.

I could hear faint voices around me , concerned?...or tormenting. I rushed outside the classroom and immediately let myself slide my back down the cold , stone wall. I let my mind drift into a blurry nightmare. I hear voices but not ones around me.No. It was myself. My own mind was turning against me. 

Maybe she was right. Your Pathetic. Never to be loved. Ever.

I covered my face with my hands and tried to calm myself. Somebody came rushing out, I heard their footsteps and they knelt in front of me and tried to move my hands away from my face but i flinched. "Hey....hey no, It's okay....everything's okay" the person tried to calm me and tried again to move my hands away to which I complied. 

"There we go...focus on me. On me okay.." My eyes fixed onto his stone-grey ones. I tried to focus on the details of them. I could see the reflections of the hallways' candles flickering in them. Draco rubbed his thumb across the top of my hand and my breaths fell into my normal pace. 

"Your okay..." He never took his eyes off me. My head still confused , I fell forward into Draco's chest and he hugged me. He actually hugged me. "Thank you Draco...thank you" i whispered into his chest. I hated being vulnerable, It's shows me as a weak person and I'd never let that happen in front of anybody except Pansy and the boys. 

"Are you okay to stand?" I nodded and he helped me up. i took a deep breath and tried to make myself look like I didn't have a mental breakdown in the middle of a hallway. "Okay..do i look like I'm fine?" Draco looked me up and down to check. "You always look great Ells but yes you look like none of that happened." He smiled at me and just as we were about to go inside again the doors came bursting open. 

"Oh my fucking god Ells." Pansy rushed over to me and hugged me tightly. She pulled away and looked me directly in the eyes. "Are you okay?" I smiled and nodded. I knew she Didn't believe me but i also knew she'd never pressure me to say anything. 

"That little whore." Matteo scoffed walking out of then classroom with Tom , Enzo and Blaise. "She had no right to treat anybody like that." Tom agreed and so did everybody else. "What the fuck happened in there Ells..are you alright?" Enzo asked me. 

"How many time do i have to say that i'm fine." I laughed a little and Enzo smiled at me. "Come on Ells , we all love you. You can tell any of us anything we are always here for you." Everybody agreed. I just wanted to go to the dorms and either sleep or just hang out with everybody. 

A/N- I swear this girl has so much drama in her life i- that's my fault. Anyways , i hope you enjoyed and feel free to comment suggestions! Love you all <3 :)