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Chapter Two : Fred.

We arrived at Hogwarts grounds and my merlin it was refreshing to be somewhere that isn't locked away in my room. Pansy told me that Me , Draco and Enzo can go ahead if we get there first and go check out the new dorm rooms. We walked up the hill and oh my fucking god the pain in my legs. "Enzo....you know you love me....." Him and Draco looked at me suspiciously. "What do you want?" I stopped him and turned him to look at me. "My legs hurt so because you love me extremely please give me a piggy back." I smiled as innocently as i could to try and win him over. "Oh come on Ells its a ten minute walk" Draco argued. "Shut up I didn't ask you" Draco scoffed and laughed a bit.

"Okay fine. You owe me." I turned and looked at Draco "Ha! Ugh Enzo I honestly love you so much , Thank you." I went behind him and he lifted me onto his back. He chuckled "It's fine Ells but i was being serious about you owing me." Enzo looked at Draco who was walking casually but with his head down "Jealous that i get to carry the pretty girl and you don't?" He joked. "Please give me a break."

"I'm flattered Enzo" I pretended to be chuffed with myself which annoyed Draco more. "Come on Draco what's the matter." I knew exactly what the matter was. Little Draco was Heartbroken. "Well you see Ells , Astori-"..."Say another word to her and i'll push you" Draco glared as Enzo. "You're a cruel man Draco Malfoy....Cruel."

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"Get off now Ells or I'll throw you off." after about twenty minutes we finally arrived at the top of the hill. "Fine but just so you know its a good view from up there." I said as I jumped off. "Now come on I wanna get to the dorms so we can see them first." Lorenzo put an arm around my shoulder and Draco looked around for Tom , Pansy and Matteo "What about that start of term feast thing" Draco asked as we went past the great hall to the dungeons. "Meh , whatever we can miss it."

Draco muttered the password "pureblood" and was surprised it was the same as we entered the common room. "Just as i remember it....Oh look under the dragon sculpture to see if the cork for the first drink we had here is still there" Enzo walked over to the fireplace and checked "Yes ma'am , it is still there." We had that cork since last year when we had our first party in the common room that we could actually attend. This year we are allowed to host our own parties , well when i say allowed i mean by the other Slytherins obviously not Snape he'd have our heads if he knew.

"So....How's you and um that Weasley?.." Draco asked. Me and Fred Weasley had been dating for nearly a year now. I thought it was a summer thing but i guess he didn't and I'm not lying I caught feelings for him but there's one thing i know about Fred Weasley. He's madly in love with Angelina Jhonson. I don't blame him but it hurts. I guess i love him but it's a love that won't last. Especially with the ball coming up in a week.

The ball happens everytime we come back to a new year. I know that won't end well and i can't wait for it to be over. I could never bring myself to break up with Fred because i'd fallen completely in love with him but we have been fighting recently. He knows how close i am to all my friends and he tells me he is okay with it and i know he can trust me because i'd never and i mean NEVER do anything to hurt him. He tells me im so "closed off" and that he "doesn't know what to expect" but that's just who i am , that is how i was raised. I don't open up in fear of getting hurt so i hurt myself so nobody else can. It's life.

Tom , Matteo , Blaise and Pansy finally came bursting in through the stone wall entrance , laughing hysterically. "Fine I guess." I said bluntly desperate for a new conversation topic. "Don't fucking lie to me Ells , I've heard you fighting." Draco was getting annoyed. Everybody stopped what they were doing as soon as Draco got to the fighting part. "Who what now?" Lorenzo asked walking over to me. Fucking hell Draco , does he not understand what they would do if they found out about what is going on with me and Fred. Of course they know we're dating but only Pansy knows about the constant arguing.

I sighed. " It's nothing , honestly. Draco must be talking about somebody else." I smiled hoping they'd just drop the subject. "I've known you since we were five and your telling me 'nothings wrong' , complete bullshit." Lorenzo argued back and turned around to look at Pansy. She looked at me not knowing what to tell them. I lightly shrugged and she walked over to me and pulled me away from everybody else for a 'talk'. 

"You have to tell them at some point , or they will just find out the way I'm most certain you wouldn't want them to." I fiddled with my rings to try and think for just a minute. I know how 'over-protective' they are of each other, including me and Pansy so  have two options. Either , get pansy to lie for me and have them find out a different way and then them be annoyed at me for keeping it from them or tell them and lock them in a room for weeks until it's blown over.

"I have to tell them Pansy , I don't want them to be mad at me for not telling them the truth....they trust me." She nodded and hugged me " You shouldn't even be with that dick anyways , you know he's probably always with Angelina why don't you just break up with him." 

"I'm not talking about it." I walked away over to the boys who were on the couch wait for us to come back. "Tell me now Ells." Tom looked at me , putting an arm on the back of the couch and staring at me."Okay , stop doing that it's freaky. I'll tell you , it honestly isn't even a massive deal like you make it out to be."

"Anything that concerns you is a big deal." Blaise said smiling. I went and sat next to Tom and Pansy. "Me and Fred have been arguing lately....about Angelina and how he thinks I'm...'too closed off'." Draco's leg started bouncing and he got up. "Who the fuck does he think he is." 

I put my head in my hands " It's not even a big deal it's been happening for months." Draco had his back turned to me and i stood up. "If it had been happening for months why the fuck didn't you tell us!" Matteo started raising his voice.

"Okay , hold on why are you getting mad at me? As though I caused it." I sat there shocked. Why the fuck are they shouting at me. It's not my fault he wants Angelina, why don't they ask about how Fred hasn't broken up with me yet. Oh that's right because he's pretending to love me. He's faking it when he really loves Angelina. It will always be Angelina. 

"You didn't fucking tell us as soon as it starting happening!" Draco turned back around."This is the reason , this exact thing is the reason why I didn't fucking tell you! It's arguments everybody has them in relationships , your overreacting!" I shouted at them Pansy got up and told Draco and Matteo to sit back down and they did.

"You haven't even given me a chance to properly explain and all of a sudden your worried about me not telling you." I stared at them blankly as they both looked down."Go on. Explain." Tom said bluntly, I know he's angry but when he is he goes silent. 

"I thought me and Fred were a...summer thing and then he turned it into more which I'm not going to complain about but....he said he 'can't get enough of me' and wants to move on past the whole summer thing. Everything was fine until he was becoming more...i don't know...annoyed with me? We started arguing and It's always either about how I'm not putting enough effort in , which i am more than him , or about Angelina...he's always with Angelina."

"Do you love him." Lorenzo asked me. He hadn't said a word since i started explaining. He was looking down and the floor and then looked up directly at me. "Yes." we kept eye contact as everybody was completely silent. "He's pacifying you."           "I know...and I'm letting him."

"We will never let anybody hurt you Ells. You know that." Matteo told me and then got up looking at me. He knows i don't want to carry on this conversation. "Come on , let's look at these rooms that Draco's father sorted out for us." Everybody got up. "I heard he got us a joint one" Pansy said laughing.

Draco came over to me "I'm sorry for the way i reacted....you shouldn't be treated like that by anybody...let alone a weasley." Draco smiled lightly. "It's fine, let's go look at these dorms." 

Thank god that's over.