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Zach Herron

{TW: suicidal thoughts, mentions of self harm, minor cussing}

Tonight was Zach and Y/n's date night, but Y/n hasn't been feeling up to anything, she lied in bed trying to stop herself from crying, about a few minutes ago, she was looking in the mirror and didn't like what she was seeing

She had a gap between her legs, her stomach was very flat, she made herself think she didn't look like what her boyfriend wanted, she was smaller than every other girl

Early that month she was discovered with anorexia, she lost a lot of weight, she hated how she looked, nothing made her think or feel better about herself, she didn't want to mention any of this to Zach

She thought he would leave her, always feeling insecure, having anorexia, feeling depressed, hurting herself, maybe thoughts of ending it all, as her thoughts ran through her head, she had enough of holding it and bursted into tears

She gotten up from her bed and stood in front of the mirror once again, and started to point out all her flaws more, she collapsed to the floor, crying, then she felt arms wrap around her, she cried into their shoulder

Zach: "I know what your think and your wrong, nothings wrong with you, Y/n your perfect, it's more than words can say, I love you so much, don't forget that, I know what you were doing, you have so much beauty that flaws don't even exist for you"

Y/n: "you don't have to lie"

She said lifting her head off his shoulder, avoiding his gaze

Zach: "I'm not lying"

Y/n: "please just go"

For a moment it was quiet until she was brought into a hug, she hugged him back and they swayed back and forth, he reached for her wrist until she quickly her arm away

Zach: "what's wrong?"

Y/n: "I think you need to go"

Zach: "Y/n..what are you hiding?"

Y/n: "just go!"

Zach: "talk to me...Y/n, I can't help you unless you tell me what's wrong"

Y/n: "get the fuck out!"

Zach: "you don't mean that"

Y/n: "yes I do! So leave!"

She turned away so her back was facing him, she heard the door close, when she thought he left, she broke down in tears, and fell to her knees and bringing her hands to her eyes, letting her tears stream down her face

Zach wrapped his arms around her, he held close and tight, he never liked hearing his girlfriend talk down about herself, if only she saw herself the way he sees her

She lifted her head off his chest and pulled up her sleeve, showing her fresh cuts and the faded ones that have yet to heal

Zach: "why are you doing this?"

He carefully skimmed over her marks

Y/n: "I don't wanna live anymore"

Zach: "baby, I would jump off a cliff for you, just to prove everything to you"

Y/n: "you fucking liar!"

She tried to push him away but that only made him hold her closer and tighter to him

Y/n: "I wanna end it all"

Zach: "no you don't, you good be a good lawyer someday, I know your the most strongest, beautiful, intelligent, caring, person I've ever known"

She shook her head

Y/n: "no I'm not, Zach I'm ugly!"

Zach: "Y/n, your the most gorgeous girl I've ever seen, I love how you look, your so beautiful well more than beautiful"

Y/n: "please don't leave me"

Zach: "why would I leave you?"

Y/n: "I wanted to tell you this earlier but I have anorexia"

Zach: "don't ever think I would you because of that, leaving you is the last thing I ever wanna do, I will help you get through this, I'm gonna be here every step of the way, baby I love you a lot more than you think"

She cried in his chest, he held her close to him, he never want to lose her, he loved her, and he loved her even more than a person can love someone when she couldn't love herself, reminding her everyday that she was beautiful and strong

A/n: sorry I haven't updated in a few days just had been trying to finish some school work