A Glance At The Chapters

slip away

It wasn't love at first sight for sure but it was something. Very few people charm me. Very few things excite me...but you...you made my heart flutter. I smiled. Not that awkward smile thing I do when I don't know what else to do... I was almost giggling. I was actually blushing. You weren't one for words or maybe i just never got to the part where you could trust me. Honestly, I was crushing hard. No one had ever made me feel this way, ever. Maybe I was too much... I will never know. I tend to self-sabotage when things are going well. Too well in my mind. I wanted certainty, assurance...that you'd always be there. I hated how I could feel you slip away each day. I tried to hold on but it was more of some drowning girl clutching at a straw. Laughable. I wasn't going to make it to the finals and it hurt so bad. It hurt to know that I could never be a part of your life the way I would have wanted. So, I let go and only wished that you'd be happy.