Walk With Me

CHAPTER 7

Alex's pov

I look behind me and see her opening her arms and I lift her up while she wraps her legs around my waist. I hold onto her so tightly until I felt her squirm and I loosen my grip on her

"Daddy I waited for you for so long until I fell sleep"

"I'm sorry baby, daddy got stuck somewhere but now I'm here" I kiss her neck and she smiles at me. That smile, that smile.

"You should go back to sleep now baby" I say to her taking her back to bed but she refuses and holds on yo me tightly "no dad,I want to sleep with you"

"But princess..."

"Please Daddy" she pouts and just looking at her sweet face as she does that,I just say yes and she shouts 'yes' with a huge grin on her pretty face.

I pull the covers over Kate's body and I decide to let her to sleep on Daisy's room since she's fast asleep, I then write her a note that I took Daisy with me and that she should take her leave tommorrow morning and not to bother making us breakfast.

The poor lady hasn't been taking offs since she was taking care of Daisy all the time when I had been an absentee parent for two months. I felt so bad for her and I decided to raise her salary for bearing with me and my daughter for all that long.

I walked to my room with a happy Daisy in my arms and I slowly put her on bed. She sunk into the covers while I went to the bathroom to take a shower and changed into pajamas

"Daddy how about we watch a disney movie" she said excitedly but I turned her down because it was already late.

"We can do that tommorrow Daisy. It's so late and you need to sleep"

"What if tommorrow you're busy?" She asked softly and I felt so guilty for causing her so much pain through my actions.

"No baby,I'm not going to work this weekend. It will be just daddy and you my princess,okay?" I said taping on her tiny nose.

"Yes daddy" she said and I pulled her close to me and cuddles her until she fell asleep.

I was trying so hard to fall asleep but I couldn't. The memories of that lady from the cemetery kept running through my mind.

I remembered that she was sitting between  two graves, which meant that she had lost two people. Two people twice the pain. Worst pain.

I think of how much pain I've been feeling for the last two months. Total anguish. I couldn't imagine anyone going through that kind of sorrow.

When I saw her crying, I so badly wanted to wrap my arms around her but I didn't know her and I knew better than to tell her everything was going to be okay.

There are really no words to tell someone who have  lost their loved one. Nothing you say is ever enough. No words can mend their broken hearts nor take away the pain and sadness they feel inside.

I could imagine how she was feeling now. Empty and lost. Lonely and broken. That feeling is so familiar with me.

I looked at my sleeping beauty and I just felt tears running down on my face. If I was feeling so bad after loosing my love, how about her? She lost her own mother, her friend and instead of me being there for her, I pushed her away. I kept pushing her away every time she came running to me. But that didn't make her hate me, her innocent and sweet heart didn't hate me, she loved me as much as she did right from the start. I had failed her so terribly but I was going to fight for her now. I was going to makeup for all the time that we had lost and  make her feel my love for her in her life all over again. I'm going to protect her and love her like she deserves.

I pull the covers over our bodies and  I switch of the lights from the night stand.

I wrap my arms on my baby girl and kiss her cheeks.

"Have a good night my little princess" I whisper the words to her and I slowly drift away  to sleep thinking of how tommorrow will be. How tommorrow my baby and I will start a new beginning.

When this night fades away and the morning finds it's way, we'll have fresh start, well have a new beginning and we will make everything as beautiful as ever.

I may never get over the death of my dear wife and our stillborn baby but I will try to leave everything behind and move on for the sake of my daughter who is looking up to me.
I am going to let go even though it will be had, I'll set her free and let her rest in peace. No more crying over her but instead, I'll cherish all the memories we made and put all my effort on raising this precious little us that looks so much like her mom.

I'll be the best dad there will ever be.