Walk With Me

CHAPTER 6

Triciah's pov

I felt bad when I din't reply to that guy even though  I tried to but my voice wasn't as clear and so I just decided to stay quiet
I watched him as he walked slowly towards the gate and not looking back even once. I looked around me and picked a falling petal of a rose flower from my son's grave, I smelt the sweet smell as I blinked away the tears that were threatening to fall. This was not happening. I stood up and walked towards the entrance only to find guy from earlier standing at the gate. I  assumed he was waiting for a cab and knowing how hard it is to get one on this side of town, I decided to offer l him a ride, this would help me keep my mind off of recent events even for a second. Plus I'd have less hours to stay in the house.

We drove for about 30 minutes until we got to his home. He had a very big house and you could see it from the road,I could already imagine how beautiful the place is. He opened the car's door and hoped off, I watched as the gate opened and I couldn't help but peep through the little space there was. His house was so beautiful and had a carpeted grass and right in front of the house there was a huge fountain and some flowers surrounding the place. Nice way to distract yourself Triciah

He said a quick thank you and waved us good bye and we immediately drove off.

The drive home was quiet and my mind had drifted back to everything that was happening in my life. I noticed the car stop and when I looked at our surroundings, I realized we were already home. I hated this place so much. My parents suggested that I sell the house and move in with them but even though I hated this place right now,it still had beautiful memories and I just couldn't put it all on a price.

It had been renovated two days after the fire and right now it was back to normal but of course a lot had changed since many things had been burnt and they had to be removed.

I walked straight to my room after I said goodnight to my brother and I changed into my pajamas and headed to sleep.

I kept turning on the bed for almost two hours as the events of today kept running through my mind, I tried so hard to forget everything and concentrate on my sleep but it was impossible. I got up and walked to the kitchen and prepared some coffee, I walked to the sitting room and switched on the tv hoping that my eyes would grow tired of the light and close but nothing was working.

I couldn't believe how fast it had all happened. Having it all one moment and then the next it was all gone. I looked at the picture hanging by the wall.It was of Max, Jace and I  on Max's fourth birthday. He had lost his front teeth and he was smiling so widely at the camera with his toothless face, I smiled at the memory. He had been so excited on that day because all of his friends from school and church had been present. He received alot of gifts including video games and he couldn't wait to play with his friends. I remember his wish was for him to have more video games and also be the fastest human like the flash. He believed that if he practiced running he'd become so perfect and when he grows old he'd be just like the flash. I smiled at the memory and wiped the tears from my eyes.

His dream of running was as impossible as his growing up. There's so much I really wanted to do with him. I wanted to teach him alot.

I wanted to watch him pass from childhood to adulthood, I wanted to know about his first girlfriend and I wanted to teach him how to treat her right just like his father did with me. I wanted to always be there to guide him and support him in everything. I wanted so much for him but life never gave me a chance,he just had to leave me at such a young age.

I turned on the radio to listen to music hoping that it would call my nerves and...

"I bet you feel you're finally home
Walking down those streets of gold
The kind of peaceI can't explain
Looking into Jesus face
I know that you're in a better place
But I'll be joining you someday

It isn't easy to say goodbye
But I know it's only for a little while
Run up ahead and I will catch up
I'm gonna see you when tommorrow comes
On the other side, on the other side"

I felt strong arms wrapped around me  as my body shook in crying and disbelief. I just couldn't get over the thought of loosing my family in just an hour.

"There Triciah, there, there" he said as he rubbed his hand on my back trying to calm me down

"Dave, why did they have to go? Why did they leave me, why Dave? Why?"

"You have me sis, c'mon, I'm never leaving your side. I'll always be hear for you" he kissed my head and I could tell that he was crying too "as for why they left, it's only God who knows the reason, let's pray that He gives you strength to overcome this. Have faith" he kept rubing my back soothingly and before I knew I fell asleep on his arms.

My poor brother had to see his ever strong sister break in front of him.
But truly,no strength could sustain you after being hit by a heavy blow that you never saw coming.

My life had turned into a huge nightmare in a duration of one hour, a nightmare that I wasn't sure if I'd ever get over. It's not everyday you loose your loved ones and end up being just fine as if nothing really happened.

Despite being hit by such a blow, despite having my heart broken into pieces, I still had trust in God.
I still trusted that He would see me through this because even though I was in so much anguish I knew that everything he does it's all for the glory and honour of His name. I believed that he did it for a reason, one that I may never know or even understand but I still trusted His ways.
Sometimes I felt myself loose hope in everything. The pain and agony would weigh me down but I'd whisper a word of prayer and I'd find peace.

I knew I'd never heal from this but I trusted that it would all be well some day. All I needed to do was to keep trusting God. Keep my faith strong and let Him do his work.

I trusted that His grace would be sufficient.