Walk With Me

CHAPTER 4

Triciah's pov

"For as much as it has pleased Almighty God of his great mercy to take unto himself the souls of our dear brothers here departed: we therefore commit their bodies to the ground: earth to earth, ashes to ashes,  dust to dust; in sure and certain hope of the resurrection to  eternal life  through our Lord Jesus Christ; who shall change  our ville body, that it may be like his glorious  body according to the mighty working, where he is able to subdue all things to himself"

I watched the caskets being lowered as the preacher went ahead on reading the sermons but my mind had already drifted away.

A raw wave of pain washed my heart as my mind tried to comprehend what really going on.

I took my flowers and walked towards Jace's grave. I threw them and they landed on top of the casket where a small cross was. Right where my husband's heart was.

Tears flowed down as I looked at the casket in disbelief.

We had so many dreams to fulfill but now I was going to bury them all. We had just started a family five years ago and now it had been taken away.

The universe must have laughed at us when we made plans for our future and all the dreams.

A future that would never be.
Dreams that would never come to life.

Death had robbed me my future right from it's stem to it's roots.

Walking in tears I headed to the next grave, my baby's grave. Oh no, what is all this.

This kid was so innocent
Why did he have to go through all that pain?
I had sworn to protect my baby with my everything but I never even got a chance to save him when he cried out for me. I'm sure he called me a thousand times when it was all happening....

I can't imagine the pain my baby went through on that fateful night.

I threw a bunch of white roses on my innocent baby and I walked back to my sit while tears kept rolling down my face.

"It shall be well my dear. Our good Lord will see you through this hard time" my pastor Mr Steve patted my shoulder as he walked away together with his beautiful wife and their two children.

People were coming to me with comforting words, or rather words that were meant to comfort me but I was already getting tired of hearing all those words. I mean, who are we kidding here, no amount of sorries and strong words would bring back my family. No words would mend my broken heart. No words would bring love of my life back.

I didn't realise how fast time had gone until I saw Dave in front of me giving me his hand to hold so that we could leave.

"I'll stay here for a while,you just go ahead"

"I can't leave you here alone Triciah"

"Don't worry about me. I'll be alright. Just let me stay with them for a while" I said with tears threatening to fall from my eyes but I blinked them away.

"Okay then, call me when you need me please." He kissed my cheeks and looked at me with sadness writers all over his face. "I'll drop mom and dad at the house then I'll come and wait for you,okay?"

I nodded and he walked away.

Now I was left alone. Everyone had gone and I was all alone just like how my life will be from now on. Lonely

I was only going to live with memories of my family.

I watched as the sun set with a beautiful orange twilight and as the sun kept fading away I realised that was just how my life was becoming.
It was so beautiful but now it's gone,just like the beautiful twilight had disappeared and darkness had started falling.

I sat between the two graves not caring that I was wearing white. I used to think graves were scary especially at night but today I felt no fear, instead all I fealt was agony.
I hated how cold this place was. I hated how silent this place was.

I cried so much for my baby and husband. I wished that the heavens would hear my cry and bring back my husband and my child. I wished that they would grant me this wish.

I imagined how lucky I'd be to have them back. Have my family back in whole. It doesn't matter in what condition they'd be in. I wouldn't mind if only it means they'd come back to me.
I smiled as I imagined seeing their beautiful faces in front of me smiling back at me. I'd hug them so tight and I'd never let go.
I hadn't realized that I was hugging my legs that I had brought so close to my legs.

I looked down and my smile disappeared as I got out of my imaginations.

Nothing like that was ever going to happen. Not in this world.

I was going to be a loner for the rest of my life. With no one to love like I did with my two human's and no one to love me like they so passionately did.
I was never going to have a second chance in life. That doesn't happen anyway. I sniffled as tears kept rolling down my face until...

"Hey Angel. Why are you crying?"