I let him go

2 || why can't i tell him

After that day every day became magical. I sat behind him in class. He is so beautiful. I love him so much.

Should I tell him?
I should shouldn't I?

After school I went to the park. Because his photoshoot will finish in any minute now.

Yes I know his whole schedule.

He just finished. I walked up to him. He looked surprised. I kept stuttering. Gorilla honked.

Adrien: "Oh Gorilla is waiting. Is it really important?"

Marinette: "No never mind, it's not important."

I ran home as fast as i could.

My lip started trembling.
My breathing was uneven.
My eyes got puffy.
My sight became blurry.
The first tear rolled down.
I was crying.

I went to my room as fast as I could.

I'm so stupid. Why can't I just talk to him. So stupid. I could at least ask him to hang out. Why can't i just talk to him. It's so stupid. He doesn't even love me. He only see's me as a friend. I'm so stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. That was the first night I cried myself asleep.