Time To Let Go [ l.n. ]

- prølogue

Prologue -

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TILLY

"Lando!" I yelled, hoping he could hear my voice through the door over his sobbing self.

I rested my forehead against the cool wood of the bathroom door, hoping he hadn't gone too far again. When I got the call that he had locked himself in the bathroom and was crying, my head was consumed with worry.

The few minutes it took for me to get here felt like an eternity as I rushed over. "Lando, it's me! Open the door!" I begged him for what felt like the hundredth time.

The hoarse feeling in the back of my throat was telling me to stop yelling, and the tears that wouldn't stop falling from my eyes, kept burning. I was well aware of the people who told me I should just walk away from the constant pain he causes me, but I wouldn't - couldn't live with myself or something worse were to happen to him. I felt like it was my responsibility to make sure he was okay. I knew it was. I need to save him, even if it means I'm saving him from himself.

If someone would have told me a year ago, that this is how we would end up, I would have laughed in their face and told them how stupid and wrong their words are. But things change, and life makes it impossible to stay happy forever.

"Lando," I whimpered, banging my fist as hard as I could against the bathroom door. "Please," I sobbed, the tears rolling down my cheeks like a waterfall were uncontrollable at this point.

I could hear his faint cries from inside the bathroom. I could picture his body sitting on the cold floor, and it fuelled me to try harder. "Lan, please open the door, baby please," I cried out, feeling my knees buckle, and my legs give out. I slid down the wall and continued my sobs, not quite sure what to do next. How can I help him if he won't let me?

I soon come to realise I can't. I can't help him, and that is the most frustrating part. I try everything, but even everything isn't enough. It's not enough when he doesn't want my help. So I don't. I'm going to stop. Stop trying to help, but only in hopes that he will realise he does need my help, and hopefully he will let me. And then, only then, can I help him.

"You'll be mad." His soft voice cracked at the end of his sentence, making my heart wrench. The pain in my chest was aching more and more with each sob that left his lips.

"No, I won't be, just please open the door Lando." I turned and rested my forehead against the cold material of the door. "Please baby, please open the door." I begged softly.

"Promise you won't be mad." He hiccuped.

"I promise, please open the door." I would give him the world if it got him to stop hurting himself.

The lock on the door slowly clicked, as the door painfully slowly opened, and gently swung open to reveal Lando in his painful state. Watching the boy I am so hopelessly in love with go through this is heartbreaking, but what's worse is I don't know how to save him.

"Please don't leave me." He begged as I crawled towards him. I couldn't find the strength to stand again. I might fall if I try, and that's the last Lando needs, I need to be strong for him.

"Please don't leave me," he repeated as he sobbed into my shoulder. I sat in his lap and pulled his head into my chest. "I'll never leave you." I promised as I ran my fingers through his greasy hair. "Never." I secured my promise. I kissed his head as he sobbed into my chest. "I'll be here for as long as you let me. I promise." I tried my best to calm him down with soothing words and soft kisses but this isn't the type of pain hugs and kisses will fix. Lando needs help, and I can't give it to him.

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Also again, italics are the future, or in rare cases the past, but it will be clear which. Please don't skip them, because they are important, and in no way do they ruin the story or give spoilers.

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