Fragile ( Sam Pottorff fanfiction)

Chapter 1

Hi my name is Journey but most people call me Jo. I am 18 and just graduated high school. I have long blonde hair and blue eyes. I am the oldest well used to be my little sister died when I was 15 of cancer. I live with my mom. My dad is always working so I don't see him.
After my sister died my mom just kind of went into a trance and she isn't her self any more.

As for me. I moved school when she died I was bullied way to much. Once I moved schools I though I fell in love with the love of my life, Marcus. It was going good for about a year until things started to change. He started to come very protective and wouldn't let me out of the house. Before I knew it he started to beat me. It got so bad I started to cut. Cutting became a daily routine. I had no friends to help me through it which made it worse. Marcus had raped me 5 times eventually someone found out. He is in jail now. I'm still cutting and not eating but that's enough about me.

Tomorrow I am moving to California. I just want to get away from this hell hole town. I don't really have much to bring with me since I've already shipped all my stuff to the apartment. I walk downstairs to see my mom in the kitchen making a bagel. Bagels are her favorite.

" hey Jo" mom says as she speeds the cream cheese on the bagel with a smooth butter knife. She seems happy which is weird.

" what's gotten in to you."

" ohh nothing it's just... I'm giving you 5000$ to shop when you get to Cali."

" OHH MY GOD REALLY MOM."

" Yes you deserve it. I haven't been the best lately and I wanted to make it up to you."

" mom thank you so much. You mean the world to my I could not have a better mom. I love you so much." I really can't believe my mom is doing this I did nothing to deserve it. I'm a disappointment of a daughter. I'm fat, ugly, annoying and I have scars all over my body.

Ohh did I tell you I have a YouTube channel. It the only thing that has helped my through life. Right now I only have 957,890 subscribers. Yeah I know. I have a 'small' crush on Sam pottorfff but I know that will never happen. Who would date a girl like me .

I go upstairs to my soon to be old room. I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket. I look down at my iPhone.

@katiejo " eww your a ugly who're just kill yourself. @ jojomarie"

Ouch that hurt. Oh no please don't stay strong Journey. I can't do it. I burst in tears. Why would people want me to die. I run to the bathroom, and do something I probably shouldn't do but who care they want me to die right?