" one , two, three. " I'm sitting on my bathroom floor counting the cuts as I swipe the blade across my skin.
Why can't my life be like other girls I'm not pretty or smart or any thing.
I clean my cuts and desire I should just sleep it off. I change into some pink jogging pants and a loose tee shirt for Aeropostale. I slip under my warm fuzzy comforter and fall into a deep sleep...
*DREAM*
" I love you Sam Pottorff and I don't know what I would do without you."
" I love you too babe. Will you be my girlfriend?"
" oh my gosh yes." I start to cry. I can't believe my celebrity crush just asked me out. It seemed like just a month ago I was in my old house cutting because of some stupid hatter.
" I was hoping you'd say that." Sam smiles and starts to lean in. I lean in too. Sams lips crash in to mine and it just felt like fireworks went off inside of me. The kiss wasn't rough. It was slow and passionate. Sams lips are soft. He just gives me vibes that I'm safe.
I soon break the kiss and we walk along the beach hand in hand.
" wanna come over tonight the boys said its movie night?"
" I would love to mr. Pottorff."
" after you ms. Jones"
* END OF DREAM*
Did I just really have that dream? I believe I just did. I get out of bed hungry but I know I won't eat. I'm to fat to eat. I get dressed in some black jeans from America eagle, a heart sweater from topshop a grey beanie from Pacsun and some grey vans. ( btw it's in the media)
I look in the mirror and hate what I see. Why can't I just be pretty like all the other girls. I put on my normal make up. Foundation, concealer, powder, neutral eye shadows, eye liner, mascara, and a pinkish lip.
I pack whatever is left in my room to get ready for Cali. It's not 12:36 and the plane leaves at 7:30 so I got some time. I slip on some black sunglasses and write. Note to my mom:
"going to grab something to eat be back soon."
A grab my wallet and keys and head out the door
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" hi can I get a vanilla bean frap with two squirts of raspberry. I love this secret recipe. It taste just like cotton candy.
"And what's your name ma'am?"
" ohh uhh just put jo."
I get my drink and head to Taco Bell. That place is the bomb diggity. Sorry about that. I start the ignition and my boy trevor Moran comes on. It's his new song of of his new ep. XIAT.
I've always supported trev he is so funny and cute but too young for me. As I arrive to Taco Bell I realize it's packed so I just go through the drive through.
" hi what can I get for you today?"
" can I get 2 Doritos Loco's tacos and a Baja blast?"
" yep! Is that all for you today?"
I know what your all thinking you don't eat remember, but this is the first time in three days I don't want to die of starvation.
I drive home and double check that I have everything. Once I'm done I grad my carry on and call for my mom.
" MOM LETS GO CALI IS CALLING MY NAME."
She slowly makes her way downstairs, grabs her keys and heads to the car. As we start driving my mom starts to cry... Ohh no.
" promise you'll be save and you will visit all the time."
" yes mom don't worry I'll be fine."
Once we get to the airport and pass security and stuff. My mom just bawls her eyes out. I guess at leas my mom loves me.
" plane to Los Angeles California now boarding!" Some annoying lady yells over the intercom.
" mom I'll visit as soon as possible. I love you bye. Be safe." I tell my mom as Ingulf her into a hug.
As I board the plane. My phone vibrates I look down to see what it says and I can't believe what it says!
"@sampottorff followed you"
This can't be real he actually noticed me. This move might actually become something good for once. We will just wait and see.
I get on the plane and find my seat. I plug in head phones and scroll through twitter and see a tweet from Sam pottorff.
@sampottorff "hey Jo I've watched you for the longest time and heard your coming to Cali maybe we can hang. I gave you my number in dm, you should give me a call. @jojomarie"
Oh my gosh this can't be happening. I started to freak out on that small plane.
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Fragile ( Sam Pottorff fanfiction)
FanfictionA 18 year old girl who is depressed graduates high school. With her sister dying of cancer she really has no one there for her after her abusive boyfriend Marcus. She moves to California and meets sam and eventually the rest of o2l. Will this move m...
