The New Girl

Chapter 14: Resolving the Problem

Ever since that moment, in the bedroom with Amity again, it's almost as if everything finally turned around.

I finally feel...truly happy with myself and with life in general. I mean going to Hexside already made me feel more self worth, but I still had that feeling of pure negativity. No matter what, after something great, I'd feel that gut feeling. Something bad was right around the corner, and it would screw me up. For the most part, that feeling was right.

Well, it's been two week since Amity and I confessed to each other, and I gotta say that feeling has not appeared yet.

I jump out of Mom's car, and actually feel hopeful for school again, like I did in the beginning. When I look up at the tall structure, I don't have that anxiety anymore. I don't get that gut feeling of uneasiness. I don't hear random voices in my head telling me everything will go wrong. I finally have a positive feeling now.

I can tell Amity feels the same way. At least whenever I see her in school, since she came back a week ago. She's always smiling now. There isn't any hint of...what's the word? Uncertainty? I don't think I can pinpoint the feeling, but before everything, she would always have the blank look, and that told me something. Something negative.

But now, she's more positive than ever. Whenever she sees me, I can see the joy in her eyes, as she waves at me. I'm the same way really. I feel my face blush up every time I see her within the crowd, or when she passes by.

We're kinda taking the "secret" quotas for our relationship. We're treating each other as friends around the others, but when we hang out outside of school, or are alone somewhere, we fully show our true selves to each other.

Don't get the wrong idea either. We're not doing anything... kinky or that sort. It's just true love for one another. Just wanted to clarify that.

She is so adorable, you don't even understand it. You can say that I'm just blind to everything else when she's around, but I swear ever since we got together in secret, she got like ten times cuter. 

She only came over once within this week, but that's because she's kinda grounded for most of it because of her fight with Boscha. I guess her family gave her a pass this day for some reason, but she came over regardless and we read some Azura. It was really fun, but it was more memorable because since we're together, she was more close than she was before.

I remember specifically during one chapter, I was reading out loud to her. As I was moving onto the next passage, she scooted over to my side and rested her head on my shoulder and continued to watch me read. I swear I had a heart attack there, as I jumped a little, both from embarrassment and surprise.

She also took my hoodie that was on my bed at the time and wore it for the whole session, and my heart could barely handle it. Her wearing my beanie before was cute, but this was the peak of adorableness.

It's so nice...to finally have a break, you know? I mean my entire life for the most part was filled with anxiety and worry about what's to come. I mean, I only have a mom. I never even met my dad...and you've heard enough of RVA throughout all of this. Never once in my life did I feel calm and collected. Even reading Azura never fully calmed me down, because it always made me wish I was living in that world instead of this one. Had me longing for a world where I may had some kind of meaning.