Mates / Why Don't We

CHAPTER 35:ANGER ISSUES

it had been 3 weeks since logan sucked out my powers and the nightmares were still happening often, i also threw blood up two more times.
besides that i was doing pretty okay, everything still hurt but i could move and i could talk.
the boys were out for a few hours to promote their new album. i was very tired all the time so i was just laying on the sofa watching shameless, like i had been for the past 4 hours. suddenly i got a huge headache, i immediately knew it was a migraine like corbyn had said was one of the side effects. they weren't usual headaches, they made miserable. i immediately turned the tv off , closed my eyes and digged my head onto my pillow. they usually didn't last long, luckily. i got them a few times a day. corbyn said they would probably be gone in a week or two. it was raining outside and the sound of the raindrops really made things worse. my head was hurting so much i started crying into my pillow.
Right at that moment i heard the door open. i knew it was the boys cause they said they'd be home at this hour. i really didn't want them to see me or talk to me or anything. i wanted to be alone in silence. every sound just made it worse. they came in laughing and talking an yelling, which just made me cry harder. i guess they realised what was going on pretty fast because a few seconds later it was quiet again. i felt the headache getting less heavy. i had been around 5 minutes so i knew it be over any second now. Daniel came to sit next to me. he rubbed my back and kissed my head. i knew he was just trying to comfort me but it annoyed me. "are you okay? need anything" he said as quiet as possible. the migraine was over now so i opened my eyes and got up. " i'm fine" i said. the other boys stood there too which bugged me as well. "how was your day? how are you feeling?" Jonah asked. "ugh just leave me alone!" i yelled. it took me a few seconds to get up but when i menages to do it i walked past the boys to the kitchen. i felt hungry so i was gonna make a sandwich. i hoped the boys got that i wanted to be left alone but not much later they were all in the kitchen with me.  "what's the problem lexi? please talk to us? we want to help you" Jack said. Even though i knew they were being super nice to me i couldn't help but feeling angry and annoyed. " Just leave me alone okay! i'm sick of being treated as a weak little puppy who can't do anything alone! i don't need anything okay? stop acting like i depend on you!" i yelled out. the words came out before i could rethink them. they all stood there, speechless. which just angered me more. "if i hadn't let logan suck my powers out i wouldn't be having all these problems right now! and it's all your fault you shouldn't have kidnapped me in the first place and shouldn't have made me a werewolf and shouldn't have logan take me and shouldn't have let him take my powers! and let's not forget he killed my bestfriend too. so thanks guys, really!" i yelled. i saw they all looked a little sad and guilty. i did feel bad for saying that because i knew they couldn't do anything about it and it wasn't their fault but there was just so much anger in me. i decided it'd be better if i went to my room before i could yell at them some more.

it was a few hours later and i already regretted it so much. i didn't know what had gotten into me. everything angered me. i decided i should go apologise to the boys so i went downstairs, which hurt a lot and therefore took me a while. i got downstairs and they were all sitting outside. i went outside and sat down next to them. they were looking up. it was getting dark. "i'm really sorry guys, i don't know why i said all of that, i didn't mean it, really. i'm sorry" i said. "it's okay" Jonah said. "anger issues is one of the side effects" Corbyn explained. "it did hurt tho" Daniel said but then he smiled at me.  i was relieved knowing that they weren't mad at me. "we've got to tell u something too" Jack said. they all looked at each other. they were discussing who was gonna say it, but it was clear no one wanted to. "please just say it" i said in agony. Daniel came to sit next to me. he stroked my hair and then sighed. " lexi, tonight is a full moon"