Love Doesn't Discriminate {Lams Soulmate AU}

Do Or Die

Hi well you're probably wondering how we got here. I'm John Laurens. My life honestly isn't that bad from the outside. I'm the rich popular kid everyone wants to be friends with but not a lot of people get close enough to become a friend. I only have a few real friends. Like the Schuyler sisters they are school royalty. My only other friend is Aaron Burr. You see these are the only people that actually tried to get close to me. But I still didn't tell them everything.

What most people see is John Laurens. The Star Quarterback for his high school. The one that can buy everything. The one that lives in a 4 story house. But just because you have everything doesn't mean you're happy. I can have all the money in the world but no happiness.

My home life isn't the best, actually it's not even close. I come home every day to a messy house. Beer bottles on the floor and cigarette buds on the floor. I hear my dad yelling at my siblings. But when I walk through the door I get yelled at for the house being a mess. For my grades slipping. For my mom's death. Then comes the beating. Most days it's not that bad but others I can't walk correctly for weeks.

My mother died 2 years back. She died in a car crash on the way to get medicine for my cold. It was my fault and now I can't do anything about it. She was a beautiful woman. She was artistic and kind. She gave me her sketchbook for my 14th birthday. I never drew in it until she passed. Now I draw to keep her memory alive. My littlest sister Mary doesn't remember her that well. Neither does my Youngest brother James. I tell them stories about her on the days that we don't get beaten.

I feel like my soulmate will be my escape. I want to live my life with someone that will love me. All I want is to find my soulmate. My mama used to tell me that If I believe in love and happiness in the world, Then that is what will happen. If it's the last thing I do I will make My mother proud. She gave everything for me. Her love. Her youth. Her time. Her money. Her life. So I will live everyday knowing that she is watching me and she wants me to be happy.

I have 4 siblings. Oldest is Martha , Then Henry, Then James and lastly Mary. I love them with all my heart. Mom would love them and she would be so proud. Mom wanted me to find my soulmate and be happy. I will spend my life looking for Him if I need to. Mom knew I was gay but she said dad would be mad. She loved me and accepted me. I miss her and I love her. One day I'll make her proud. But I need to find my soulmate first easy...

right?