Do You Accept Me? BOYxBOY

Chapter 4

Why Lie To Me Then?

Shane's POV.

What was I thinking? Eddie doesn't want me. After I did what I did to him at school wasn't nice at all, but I can't go back on my word. I'm listening to my friends on the football team about the up coming game. Ugh I forgot about it and I forgot that my brother was coming home too. I went home and shower while thinking of Eddie which wasn't good but it relieve the tension that I had. Man I have to come clean and I'm doing it right this time.

I walk in my living room and heard voices and notice that it was my brother that was home but for a while. When did he got here? Because I didn't hear the doorbell. Well, whatever it doesn't matter. I can talk to my brother about anything and I know that he's not going to judge me in whatever I tell him. He's like my diary. I walked in the kitchen where my brother and mother was sitting down talking about what he was doing in his life.

Walking in the conversation stop. My brother Alex and mother looked up at me, my brother got up and went around the table, coming face to face with me. I had to look up because he's taller then me. I hug him like I was hugging a piece of me, like my other half.

"Hey bro," I said to him

"Hey lil bro," Alex said back. "How's school going?"

"Fine." I said walking out the kitchen, but I knew my brother knows me better and follow me.

"Whose the lucky girl, Shane?" Alex said.

"You mean guy." I said.

"Guy?" He question me narrowing his eyes.

"Guy." I said shaking my head. "He's wonderful, sweet, honest, straightforward and knows what he wants, but there's only one problem."

"And what's that?" He said

"He doesn't want nothing to do with me, because, because I deny him in front of everyone of the football team." I said handing my head low because if nobody knew this my brother Alex was gay too. My mother was fine with that unless we adopt children in the near future.

"Why would you do that?" He ask me.

"Because I'm scared that I'm going to lose being the football captain." I said to him with tears in my eyes.

"So this is all about image to you. You prefer to lose someone you love over that." Alex said. "Listen bro, I was the same as you." He said getting serious.

So you'll know Alex was the football captain of the same team that I'm in. He was captain when I was there, and when he came out everyone accept you right away and got with his quarterback Olsen Miller. Everything went smooth and nobody bother him.

Me on the other hand, I feel like if I come out too they going to stop talking to me. It shouldn't bother me much, but in reality it does. I don't want to lose my role in the football team.

"No, it's not." I said to him.

"Yes, it is and you know it is." Alex said. "This boy is hurt and I don't mean phically but emotionally because you called him out in front of everyone and now you expect him to forgive you for what you did to him. You should be ashamed of yourself." He said got up and left going upstairs and leaving me alone in the living room.

He doesn't understand me. I don't want this, but then again why was I giving him secret letters for. I have to make this right and I am.